Grief, depression, anxiety, panic attacks and hearing voices

My husband passed away in January and I had a nervous breakdown and started hearing voices and I have seen a therapist but they are just trying different medications that are not helping I'm getting worse and I need help I don't know how to deal with all the emotions that I am feeling I'm either mad or crying for the past 6 months

[CL3V3R-G1RL]

One let me say I'm sorry for your loss. I'm sure you're tired of hearing that.

Grief is a weird thing. It comes in waves. You can keep you head above it's waters and other days you are drowning.

But grief is not a destination. It's a pit stop. Mustn't forget that.

Yes, you are going to hurt. It's hard to lose someone you love and were close too. Yeah, it's perfectly normal to be mad. Angry at God or whatever you believe in. Angry at life and it's unfairness. Even angry at your husband. I'm not saying you are, just saying for some people they even get mad at their loved one because they feel they didn't try hard enough to stay. Go ahead and cry. Feel those feelings. I know you don't want to feel like this. But the more we try not to feel bad the worse it gets.

I think working with a grief counselor can help and maybe even ask your doc about a support group.

Anyways I wish you well and my sincerest condolences to you 🫂❤️

[Caza]

bless you. It takes time & January is just a blink away.

Very weird things happened to me when my daughter died. & I did consider myself quite mad, mad with grief. It sounds like you need someone that you can talk to. Not sure how medication can help at this point but I’m not a doctor. I know you’ve probably been told this but I do believe it helps. Try to get outside I found the best therapy for me was walking. A healthy diet & plenty of exercise & someone who will listen to you talk. Crying is natural don’t stop the tears. It does take time & you have no choice but to get through it. But it will get better & you learn to live along side it. Take care.

[Dragonfly23lv]

Hello,

I’m truly sorry about your husband. Crying and/or being mad is completely understandable along with a million other emotions. For me personally when I try to suppress my grief/feelings it makes it worse.. so I try to just feel what I’m feeling in that moment. Just really try hard not to judge yourself. Please go easy on yourself and try not to put a time frame on your emotions and/or feelings. We’re all expected to go back to work within 3 days and back to our normal everyday lives after a death… well it’s not that easy.. we have to find our new normal & navigate thru a sea of emotions & life changes along with missing our friends & loved ones!! It is exhausting. I was given a journal as a gift (I didn’t think I would write in it or that it’d be helpful but boy was I wrong). Sleepless nights so overwhelmed with all my thoughts & memories etc. My grief was consuming me! I decided to start writing in it like I was writing directly to them how I’m feeling (happy, mad, sad) & it helps me tremendously. Sleeping a-lot better now since all those feelings are not bottled up inside me with no where to go! I really wish I could give you comfort & peace! Glad we have this forum, so we don’t feel so alone! I’m glad you have a counselor to talk to & hope the correct medication can help soon as well. Sending love….