Thank you for the birthday wishes. It is very hard. Since my brain is all muddled right now, I'm not sure if this is the 2nd or 3rd birthday without her. It doesn't matter, though. This birthday seems to be hitting me extra hard. I think it might be because I was so focused on my trauma the other times that I didn't have the space to think about anything else. Now that I'm shifting focus back to her (I never thought "it's about time" would be words I'd have to use for grieving...), I think it's really hitting me hard.
Thanks, Chloe. I wish I could get support at the church. I know logically that I do have their support, but this awful woman trumps that. She'll be back end of April, and I will be disappearing again. It's horrible.
That's a good idea. I would really like to get with the church council about this before she returns. I'm horribly afraid of her downplaying my grief again if I go back to the church when she gets back. If I talk to the council, they will know to be on the lookout then. I wonder if the pastor would approve that? I'll ask, so thanks for the idea.
Yes, we often forget that it is still early days with our loss, everyone has different needs and if you're like me, it can take longer than we ever imagine.
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