Feeling suicidal

[pinkladystar]

Sorry not been on here for a while. I was struggling with the loss of my peer support lady that has massively impacted on me as she was a massiv3 part of my life. This week has been the worst having a relapse having continuous anxiety attacks and feeling very suicidal

[Lilybeth Volunteer]

Hello pinkladystar

It doesn’t matter how long it’s been since you last posted, we are here to listen and support you. I’m sorry this week has been the worst, especially feeling suicidal. Do you have support tonight? Have you been able to talk openly to family or friends about how you feel? Please don’t isolate yourself. I’m so sorry the loss of your peer support worker has had such a negative impact.

If you are struggling tonight the Samaritans are there 24/7 and the contact number is 116 123 or email [e-mail]. Stay safe and take care.

[Rachel_at_APP Partner APP]

Evening Pinkladystar, I’m sorry to hear you’ve had a really tough week.

There’s no need to apologise, I hope you know that the forum is here anytime, including Christmas, the whole year, time is no issue to us. We’re here. You never need to worry about it being a long time since you posted, we’re here for you anytime you need us.

I know that everyone can and does have ups and downs in life. Times when they feel more space is needed or when they want to talk and be around others and times when they perhaps want to lean into talking about how they’re feeling. But feeling such big feelings is so very hard, so I’m glad you posted here, although just so sorry to hear that you’re having some feelings and thoughts that I can imagine might feel frightening just now.

Is there anyone you might be able to ask to come and be with you, someone you can chat in person to and tell them how you’re feeling?

Lilybeth has mentioned Samaritans, 116 123. They are there and will always be able to speak with you. I know that they too, like us, would want to support you through this.

”this”, is temporary, you won’t hold these feelings forever. Feeling suicidal can feel all consuming, sometimes like there is no escape. I learnt that talking about it, was the escape - facing up to the raw sadness and horror of my feelings by confiding in people was a brave thing to do. Brave, but hard. I know. So thank you for writing here, and trusting us, you’re so brave in sharing with us. I’ve popped a link to Mind’s website on feelings of suicide below, which I hope might help too.

We’re here, and I’m glad you are too Pinkladystar.

Rachel x

mind.org.uk/information-sup...

[Rachel_at_APP Partner APP]

Good morning pinkladystar,

Did you manage to get some sleep overnight? I hope some rest has helped?

It’s a grey wet day here, but I hope to take the dog for a walk shortly. Getting outside can help people feel more connected to their body, and I know that was definitely the case for me.

Write here anytime, if it helps as a distraction. Thinking of you. Rachel x

[Twobabies Volunteer]

dear pinkladystar, so sorry this is such a distressing time for you. I was thinking of you last night and wondering how you are. I’ve not been on the forum myself for quite a long time. Remember you are loved. I wondered if you might be able to sit or lie down and feel the earth beneath you, even if you are lying on a bed or sitting on a chair - know the earth that’s been here for thousands of years is supporting you. I invite you if you feel you can and would like to to rest your hand on your heart space and breathe long breaths into that space. I’m doing that too and sending loving care to you. Know you are loved. You always have your breath it will support you can you can call on it by focusing on it anytime you like. Do know this hard time will not last even though it can be hard to believe it. In terms of your support I’m so pleased your 1:1 was a great support to you I’m wondering if there is a way you might be able to give yourself some of what you found useful from her. Knowing that she cares deeply able your wellbeing. I çan understand the sense of loss but remember this is life it’s not personal, might you be able to connect with her through your breath/ heart space. Sending you all the love amazing human , we all here are routing for your wellbeing. Permit yourself to give yourself anything you think you need for healing. Big love. I will check in later. Xx

[Twobabies Volunteer]

hi pinkladystar, how are you doing? Thinking of you and your family. Holding you in love. Xx