Hi everyone

[Ashley031]

Hi everyone,

I'm doing ok. some days are good and other days aren't. I'm still taking my medication but I do think the dosage should be higher. I feel 20% of a difference but I want to feel 100%. sometimes I just cry bc I want this all to end. I don't get y this is happening to me

[cangra]

Hi Ashley,

I can absolutely relate to you, I am exactly experiencing the same right now. It just takes time I guess to heal, even though that is so hard to accept... I am very impatient too and want to have it all behind me as soon as possible. My doctor changed my meds to include some mild antidepressant. Haven't started on the course yet, but maybe it's worth discussing with your doctor too?

It also helps me to talk in this forum and journaling - that way I have a good summary for my doctor to discuss my feelings.

Sending lots of love. Take care of yourself.

[GorillaMumma]

I've come to accept that I will have some bad days. Even mummys who havent had a psychosis have this as well! Just take it a day at a time! Week by week I am feeling more like my normal self. Keep a track of your feelings so you can share it with the health professionals.

I had a meeting with a specialist perinatal psychiatrist who said (and I should say this is my understanding of what she said) that a psychosis is like a shake to the brain and all the dopamine all fires off at once. Then it takes some weeks for the brain to rebalance itself. Knowing there a physical reason for the swings in mood make it easier for me to deal with it.

Good luck and take it a day at a time

[Hidden]

Dear Ashley031,

how are you today?

Hi I am Sabine and discovered this forum late in 2015.

I have had PPP in 2010 and took my medication for 1 year. I was on different kinds and very traditional ones. At the beginning professionals had a huge struggle not only in administering my medication, but also trying to find the appropriate one. In my opinion PPP is for everybody very unique and make-ups of females are very diverse.

I had to be sectioned and was injected as I refused to take my medication. However, I still was unable to sleep for many weeks. Eventually I was on a high amount of Halloperadin and Lorazepam. I have had 6 nasty episodes, but once released from hospital after 37 days everything got more under control.

I guess I just would like to say that it is important to work very closely with your health professionals. In my case a lot of people had been involved including a Psychiatrist. My partner and I had to visit her for 4 months until I was transferred to my GP, who then was able to work closely with the mental health team in order to get me back on my feet.

I would not have survived the Psychosis without the medication.

By the way I am fine and a happy mum and painter x

You take good care.

Sabine

[Ellie_at_APP Partner]

Hi Ashley,

Sorry you're still having some difficult days but glad to hear you feel some difference. When will you next see the doctor, so that perhaps you can request an increase? Can you ask to see him/her as soon as possible? And do keep a diary/journal of your thoughts and feelings so that you can be clear when you see them how you are and what kind of mood and thoughts you're having.

Take care XX

[Lilybeth Volunteer]

Hello Ashley

I'm sure you have felt supported by the replies here. Perhaps if you feel your medication should be increased you could talk to your care team, or someone could speak on your behalf?

It is upsetting when you have days that are not so good but recovery has been a slow process for some of us here ...... but we all got there in the end, as you will. For now, rest as much as you can although I think in a previous thread you mentioned you have a busy time at work.

You honestly will fully recover in time ..... all your negative thoughts will fade and you will feel more positive. I think you should talk to your care team about how low you feel sometimes so that they can suggest ways to help you.

Take care ..... we are all with you.

[Ashley031]

Hey guys,

Thanks for writing back. means a lot having all your support. I'm thinking of calling my doctor. I truly believe my dose should be higher. these thoughts are making me feel like a really bad person. like I'm this evil person that should be locked up. It makes me believe that I want to do bad things even though I knoe deep down inside i don't. I want to be normal again.

[Lilybeth Volunteer]

Hello Ashley031

I think it might be a good idea to call your doctor, even if it's just to hear his view why he doesn't want to put you on a higher dose of medication. Perhaps if you have kept a note of your moods this would give your doctor an indication of how much you are struggling? You are not a bad person, or evil, this is just your illness playing on your vulnerability, It's not easy but try to be strong and stay safe.

Take care.

[Ashley031 in reply to Lilybeth]

Hi lilybeth,

I think the reason he didn't increase my dosage the last time I saw him is bc the medicine I'm on is making me break out in hives. he doesn't want to increase it and my hives get worst. I told him that the meds are helping me a little so i don't want to change meds. i don't want to be like i was before the meds.

[Lilybeth Volunteer in reply to Ashley031]

Hello Ashley

I'm sorry to hear you have such a side effect to your medication. It's a shame another medication can't be found which didn't give you such a reaction. I suppose if you feel the medication is working you would rather stick with it than change.

Take care.

[suzannah0]

How r u going? Feeling well is the most important thing. I get a lot of bad skin outbreaks with my medicine but it goes to mild after a month.

[Ashley031 in reply to suzannah0]

Hi suzannah,

I'm doing better then I was 6 months ago. I'm still haveihaving bad thoughts but not like it was. What kind of medication were you on?

[suzannah0 in reply to suzannah0]

I was on a psychiatric drug called risperidone. The drs said skin wasn't a major side effect for most people but it was for me. Have you seen a psychologist yet? That, paired with your medicine can help. I saw a bad psychologist before I got sick, but then two good ones after hospital who we're really helpful with processing my thoughts.

[Ashley031 in reply to suzannah0]

Hi suzannah0,

I haven't seen a psychiatrist yet bc of a wait list so my primary care doctor has been helping me. my medication causes me to break out in hives. I'm on olanzapine. It it is helping me but I think I need a higher dose.

[suzannah0 in reply to Ashley031]

Id give all my concerns to the Dr if you haven't already. Maybe that will push you further up the waiting list more quickly

[Hidden]

Hello Ashley,

hope the medication is working and your side effects are managed with the help of doctors and/or Psychiatrist.

I have had terrible trouble with my mobility and vision, but also digestion and lots of other things, but obviously the meds have helped to control the Psychosis...gradually I was reborn.

The recovery process is such a unique experience and according to physical and mental needs drugs are always tailor-made. Hang in there...

Take good care,

Sabine x

[Ashley031 in reply to Hidden]

Hi jasa,

I do have a couple of the side affects but I can handle them. I really don't want to switch meds bc I do feel like they are helping. I'm scared to get off them and try something else. this illness is making me so sick and making me feel like I'm a bad person. I just want it all to go awat