My cat ran away 2 days ago and it's got me crying and feeling just awful. I thought I couldn't feel worse.. but I guess I was wrong. But this post is not about that. I just wanted to ask those who have recovered- if you had the feeling of being disconnected from your life, like things aren't quite "real"- do you think it was caused by the antipsychotics themselves, or is it a symptom of PP? Basically, I was wondering if that feeling gets better when you come off the medication or it's significantly lowered.. or is it a sign of the PP still being around? Or is it just a response to trauma?
I know this is a difficult question to answer but I am going to see my psychiatrist next week and I want to be able to explain in what way I don't feel "right" in case there's some adjusting we can do to fix it. I realize we're all different but I thought if anyone has experience with this feeling and when/how it got better.
I'm currently not on antidepressants (well, I am, but a low-dose tetracyclic for sleep only) but my mood is consistently low. Again- is that PP- or is it actual depression?
On the one hand I don't want even MORE meds.. on the other I worry there's an untreated depression. I feel hopeless basically every day. The best mood I have is neutral. I manage to get out of bed and do things but I'm consistently low. I feel like I'm worse now than I was when I first came out of the psychosis.
Again, I know it's a difficult question.. but I'm just wondering if low mood accompanies PP recovery or if it's the depression (my PP didn't involve mania so I thought I would not have the depression that can follow.. but I feel so low..it's got me wondering).
Sorry if my questions are really nebulous....