Hi guys,
I just wanted to let you guys know that I'm doing ok. My faith has really helped me through this. I'm hoping the way I'm feeling continues. Hope to talk soon
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LilybethVolunteer
Hello Ashley
I was wondering how you are and I'm glad to hear you're doing ok. Hopefully you will continue to be strong and positive and lean on your faith to get you through the not so good days.
We are all here for you. Take good care.
Hi lilybeth,
Im happy that my mind isnt racing for once. I do believe the medication is helping me to buy my faith is what is keeping me sane right now. I know I will prob have a bad day again but I know I will get through this. Talk to you soon!
Hello Ashley031
I'm glad the medication is making a difference .... it's such a good feeling when you realise your mind isn't racing and you can feel a sense of calm. You might have bad day again but the strength and faith that has carried you this far will continue and you will eventually recover.
I know it's not easy when you have a bad day but you honestly will get through this with the support you have around you at home and the care team.
Take good care ...... try to have a rest after work.
Hi lilybeth,
I actually go back to work 2morrow. I was on vacation. Being at work helps me a lot bc my mind isn't on the thoughts. I had bad thoughts today but I was able to get through it again. They aren't as bad as they have been. Talk to you soon. Xo
Hi ashley it's great you're feeling a bit better... I hope it improves more and more x
Hi ellie,
I'm glad I'm doing ok. Christmas is coming and I really want to enjoy my holiday. My entire summer was ruined bc of this illness. I'm hoping by next year at this time I'll be even better. Talk to you soon. Xo
Hi Ashlel and lilybeth
You both sound like you know one of the only ways up if you're Bi-polar that is a struggle
Stick with it 58wilfred58
LilybethVolunteer
Hello Ashley
I hope you will be ok returning to work after your holiday. In a way it is a good distraction from your thoughts as you concentrate on what you are doing. Stay positive and look forward to better days ahead.
Take care.
Dear Ashley,
I am pleased you are feeling better since the meds have kicked in. It is good to have a focus and to look forward to something.
Be kind to yourself and all in stepping stones. Trial and error is fine to, do not beat yourself up, if things do not work out the way you want them to be. I usually try to keep an open mind. Obviously this can be difficult and like you I am finding distractions the best way, such as painting or meditating and going for walks or just playing with my little boy.
Kind wishes 
Sabine
Ashley031 in reply to
Hi jasa,
Are you still struggling with ppp? How old is your baby?
in reply to Ashley031
No, Ashley. I have fully recovered from PPP ( started in summer 2010) once the appropriate medication had been found-although a long struggle. I was on very traditional medication for one year.
Once weaned off Lorazepam and Risperidone I developed social and agora phobia including hyper activity/type of mania (lots of mind racing/sleep deprivation). My choice of coping with the obstacles are based on an alternative route instead of anti depressants such as healthy diet, meditating, painting, lots of exercising...in the first three years (2011-2014) I attended group therapy and volunteered in the field of mental health.
Wishing you the best of luck and peace of mind.
(My little man is 6 years old)
Sabine
Ashley031 in reply to
Hi jasa,
Do you still take medication? My son is 21 months. He is the joy in my life. I love him so much so when I have these bad thoughts it makes me sick. That little boy is my life. I want this to just be a bad dream.
Hannah_at_APPAdministrator
Hi Ashley031,
Good to hear your update and that things are improving for you. It's positive that you can feel the benefits of the meds and thanks too for sharing how the importance of your faith has been a huge comfort to you. I hope that you have also had good support from health professionals and that you are looking forward to a restful festive period. Take care, xx
Hi hannah,
I haven't seen my therapist or doctor bc my health insurance was shut off. I don't get it back until January but I'm still able to take my medication. My faith is what keeps me going. When u found out my insurance was shut off it killed me. I was so scared of hitting rock bottom again but my faith is what helped me. Hope to talk soon.
Hannah_at_APPAdministrator
Hi Ashley031, apologies I thought when you mentioned the meds that you had been able to see someone. I remember you saying about the difficulties with your insurance, that sounds really tough, I don't have experience of that as we are very lucky to have the NHS here in the UK. It's good you have been able to notice the difference from meds and also be able to take them, and that your faith has been helping. I think we all have a number of things that have helped us through and I hope that the shared experiences from others here has also helped too. Take care, xx
Hi hannah,
The health insurance in the US is awful. They not only shut me off but my 21 month old son. I don't understand how a child gets shut off. When I do get my Insurance back I will see my doctor and Im going to see if he can increase my dosage. As if right now I'm on the lowest dosage. The only thing is when i first started the medication I broke out in hives and my doctor had me take benadryl to help with the reaction. I'm not breaking out in hives anymore bc my body got use to it but i feel like if the dosage gets increased that might happen again. Talk to you soon.
LilybethVolunteer
Hello Ashley031
With the new year just around the corner I hope you will be able to have the insurance cover for the medication and treatment you need. I hope you have been ok since you last posted.
Take care ...... we are all here for you.
LilybethVolunteer
Hi Ashley
Good to hear you have been ok and hopefully your insurance will be sorted tomorrow. I had a good Christmas, thanks for asking. Wishing you a very happy New Year.
Take care .......
LilybethVolunteer
Hello Ashley
I hope your insurance has been sorted out and you now have access to the support you need from your doctor and therapist.
Thinking of you ...... take care.
LilybethVolunteer
Hello Ashley
I'm sorry you haven't been able to see your doctor or therapist because your insurance is still being processed. It's good to hear you're doing ok though and have coping strategies for your moments.
Take very good care .... we are always here to talk.
Hi lilybeth,
I call the insurance people on Thursday to see what's going on with my insurance. I'm hoping they will help me and I can get back in to the doctor. I have a doctor's appointment on Thursday but I'm not sure if i can go. I have to say I'm doing a lot better then I was 9 months ago. I do believe my doctor needs to up my dosage and that will help me a lot more. The meds and praying has helped me a lot. Hope to talk soon.
LilybethVolunteer
Hello Ashley
Thanks for your update. How frustrating it must be for your about the insurance. In an ideal world I suppose they would allow for special circumstances. I hope you will be able to see your doctor on Thursday if the insurance is available. I'm really pleased that you're doing a lot better and the meds are working, although you think a higher dose would be more helpful.
Take care.
Hi lilybeth,
Yes I think a higher dose will make this illness subside a lot more. I still get bad thoughts but I'm not dwelling on them like I use to. I just want to be able to live My life now and enjoy it. Talk to you soon.
Hi Ashley, sorry I haven't written for a while. I just wanted to write and say that it's good to hear you are doing a bit better, that the thoughts aren't troubling you so much, and that the meds are having some affect. I do hope you'll be able to get your insurance sorted soon.
Take care X
Hi ellie,
How are you? I haven't had a bad day in a long time. I pray a lot and that has been helpful. The only thing is sometimes I feel so angry. I could be fine and then all of a sudden I'm mad at the world. Like I'll think my life sucks and want no part of it anymore. I was thinking maybe it's bipolar but I'm not sure. Talk to you soon.
Hi Ashley
It's so great to hear that you haven't had a bad day in a long time, really wonderful. I found praying helped a lot too, my faith was a big part of my recovery.
I think being angry is maybe a natural emotion, part of maybe grieving what has happened to you? It sounds like you're battling a bit with depression too as well? But really does sound like you're on the road to recovery
Take care X
Hi ellie,
I def think I'm depressed. I've been through so much in the past 3 years. I knew something was wrong with me when I gave birth and when I got home all I did was cry. I should of got help them but I never did and now I'm going through ppp. I just want to be happy again. I don't want to be sad anymore. Talk to you soon.
Hello Ashley
I hope you will be able to see the doctor tomorrow if your insurance kicks in. You seem so much stronger and positive at times. It's not surprising you sometimes feel mad at the world because you have had to battle with your thoughts without much help except from family.
Take good care of yourself. We all understand and are here for you.
Hi lilybeth,
My appointment is actually friday. I thought it was Thursday. When I call the insurance people tomorrow I'm hoping my insurance is back on. I don't want to have to cancel my appointment. I always feel a little better when I see my doctor. Talk to you soon.
That's awesome Ashley. I haven't logged on for a while and was happy this was the first post I saw. Happy 2017.
Hi angviolet,
Happy 2017 to you 2! How are you doing?
Yeah pretty good. Stay at home mummery is definitely an up and down journey. But we are doing well thanks.
LilybethVolunteer
Hello Ashley
I hope your insurance is now available so that you can see your doctor.
Take care.
Hi lilybeth,
Unfortunately my insurance is still pending. They had to connect me to the department of health sources to see what was going on but te lady said it was a 3 hour wait on the phone. I'm very upset by this and just feel more down now. Nothing ever seems to go right. Now I have to call on my day off right when get open so I don't have to wait on the phone. Every 6 months I have to go through this. I'm so sick of it. Hope to talk soon.
LilybethVolunteer
Hello Ashley
Sorry to hear your insurance is still pending. A three hour wait on the phone is awful so I think it best if you go there, even though it's your day off. It must be frustrating having to cope with your illness and sorting insurance.
Take care.
Hi lilybeth,
Last night I cried because of this whole Insurance situation. My doctor won't give me anymore refills on my antidepressant until I see him. I can't see him without my insurance. Ive done everything I had ti do with this insurance. I've sent over my last 4 paystubs, my son's birth certificate, and his social and they tried to tell me that they didn't get the fax I sent them. I sent it to them 3 different times. They said they only got one of my stubs. It just doesn't make any sense. I'm so sick of dealing with it. I don't have the strength anymore. Hope to talk soon.
LilybethVolunteer
Hello Ashley
I think after all the mix up with your insurance the best way, as you said earlier, is to go and see someone. Keep a copy of all your papers and hopefully someone will listen and be sympathetic to how much you have struggled to have the insurance activated again.
It's not easy for you but hopefully it can all be sorted by your visit tomorrow.
Take care.
Hello lilybeth,
I'm very stressed out with everything. I want to be happier. I think I deserve happiness. All these people that don't work get everything they want. Insurance and money from the state. I get nothing. I pay for everything and have no Assistance through the state. I work 6 days a week. I think people who actually work should get stuff that they deserve. It's just not fair. My anxiety is so bad. I feel like nobody understands. Hope to talk soon.
LilybethVolunteer
Hello Ashley
Try to be calm when you go tomorrow and stress how important it is for your to have more medication from your doctor. I think you have waited long enough so I hope all will be well tomorrow.
Take care.
Ellie_at_APPPartner
Hi Ashley I'm so sorry to hear you're struggling with insurance, it's shocking. I agree, everyone should have access to free health care and not have all these insurance issues- we are so lucky in the UK to have the NHS as we don't have these kind of battles, even if it's not perfect sometimes.
I do hope you'll be able to see your doctor tomorrow, and it will all be sorted, and you can get the medication you need, I'm not surprised you're stressed. I know I would be if I had to struggle with that, on top of trying to recover. I wonder if there is someone else (your partner, family, friend?) who could maybe help you deal with it all?
Take care, keep writing whenever you need to
Ellie X
Hey guys,
My family is very supportive and they would do anything they can to help me. My fiance is very upset with this insurance situation. He sees me struggling and it kills him to see me like this. I finally was getting a little better and then this happened. The stress is killing me. Hope to talk soon.
LilybethVolunteer
Hello Ashley
It's good that you have a lot of support around you. I hope your meeting today is not too stressful.
Take care.
LilybethVolunteer
Hello Ashley
I hope you were able to get some positive answers about your insurance.
Take care.
Hi lilybeth,
I was accepted for my new insurance plan. I just need to send them some information and then I will be all set. My anxiety has gone down a little now since I know I'll have insurance again. I had to wait in on hold for 4 hours before I got to speak to someone. I called my doctor and hopefully I will hear back soon. Hope to talk soon.
That's great news Ashley So pleased for you and hope your doctor will be in contact with you soon. Well done for having the patience to wait four hours before you spoke to someone.
Take care.
LilybethVolunteer
Hello Ashley
Missing your medication isn't helpful so I hope your doctor will sort your prescription out soon. Take care.
LilybethVolunteer
Hello Ashley
That's awful that the doctor never called you. After all that effort you went to yesterday, waiting hours for the lady to see you. I can understand how scared you must be if you have been 4 days without medication. Can your family contact the doctor out of hours and explain the situation?
Try not to worry, take care.
Ellie_at_APPPartner
Oh goodness ashley that's terrible you haven't been able to get in touch with the doctor. I really hope it's all sorted soon and doesn't have too much of an impact. I can't believe you've had to battle like this.
Take care xx
Hi ellie,
Sometimes i just want to give up. Its always something. I want this all to go away and be happy again. Everytime i feel like im getting better something else happens and it brings me down. Talk to you soon
LilybethVolunteer
Hello Ashley
I hope your doctor will be able to help with medication today. It's not good at all that you have been left without any. Stay safe and strong with your family around you.
Take care.
Hi lilybeth,
My doctor did give me refills on my meds but i cant afford my antipsychotic. Its over 100 dollars. Idk what to do. I only have 1 pill left. Im going to become sick again. Everytime i call the doctor i can never speak with him. Im ready to just give up. Im so angry right now. The insuance is taking forever. Sometimes i really hate my life. Need some support. I hope to hear from you soon.
Hi Ashley,
I've just seen your message. This is awful, I can't believe you're having to deal with this and I'm not surprised you're so stressed, you are not getting the support you should be getting, it is awful. I'm not surprised you're so angry...
Being in the UK, we obviously don't have this particular issue around insurance etc, because of our national health service. I just wondered if you have been in touch with the charity Postpartum Support International postpartum.net/ who are based in the USA and may be able to advise you? I also wonder if someone from your family (your partner?) can chase the doctor and insurance etc on your behalf, to relieve some of the stress?
I am sure though that it is going to be sorted soon, and this stress will be over so try to keep hope...
Thinking of you, keep writing, we're here for you X
Hi ellie,
I did find a place in my state that does helo with this illness. Its actually in the hospital where i had my son. But bc of my insurance i have to wait to get in to see them. Im just so emotionally and mentally tired if everything. I just want to be happy. My unsurance should be back on in a couple of weeks. Hopefully when that happens my stress and anxiety will be a little better. Talk to you soon.
Hi Ashley
Oh goodness, I can't believe your insurance is holding up that support too... you ARE going to get better, you ARE going to be happy...I promise you. I so hope it will all get better in a couple of weeks, and also that this place you have found will really help you.
Thinking of you, XXX
LilybethVolunteer
Hello Ashley
I feel so sorry for you not being able to have your antipsychotic medication. You have come too far to give up but I can understand how all this insurance situation is making you feel.
As you said you work 6 days so I wonder if someone in your family can go to your doctor for you or ring the insurance? It's very unfair that you were told you have been accepted for the insurance but why does it take so long? Can your doctor do anything to help you so that you don't go downhill?
It's not easy but try to stay strong and supported by your family. Thinking of you ........
Hi lilybeth,
I talked to my mom and shes going to help me pay for the medication. My insurance is taking so long bc some of the information i sent over wasnt the right information. So i sent the right information over and hopefully i get my insurance in a couple if weeks. I feel like whenever something good happens something bad happens. This is the lowest i have ever felt. Talk to you soon
LilybethVolunteer
Hello Ashley
That's good news that your mom can help to pay for the medication until your insurance is available. There's a lot of support here for you so just hold on and hopefully things will get better for you.
Take good care of yourself ......
Hi guys,
Thank you for your support. Im very happy i have you guys. You have become good friends to me. I know someday i will be better. I just get inpatient. Thank you so much for listening to me. I will def give you updates on whats goung on. Talk to you guys soon. Xxxx
Ellie_at_APPPartner
Hi Ashley,
That's a relief that your mum will pay for some of the meds until you have your insurance sorted. It really is frustrating.
I hope that this will be a new start for you where you'll keep going with your recovery.
Take care, write whenever you want to X
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