Feeling Sad

[Bumble_Bea]

I've been dealing with undiagnosed mental health problems for 15 years. I've plodded and dragged my way through life. I've worked (still do), had a child (10 yrs old ), in a long term relationship and because I've said them, everything seems great... I've had nothing but praise from clients (home care).

But, I'm running on fumes! I'm sooo drained. Now I'm hiding it from my daughter (she's understanding of some things now so I try to act as positive as I can) and my partner is worried.

I keep trying to reach out for help, but the next day I'll feel ok. So I'll ignore everything cos I feel ok. My moods are unpredictable.

I see family getting support cos they open up. I can't do it. I don't want to cause upset in my little family.

There's sooo much to it. I don't even know where I am going with this. I just want to stop everything for a moment and breathe 😭

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Hello

I can relate to so much you have said and understand how you feel but deep down I think you know this is not going to go away plus it is exhausting all this pretending to be fine when deep down you are in bits even if you do have your good days you know the bad days will come again

I think we can feel guilty when we are suffering so as to why we feel by opening up may upset people yet your family have opened up have they upset anyone ?

It is time you put yourself first , time to realise you need help and time to open up knowing this can't be helped , you are not responsible for protecting everyone else and how they may feel if you speak out but you are responsible for getting the help you need and deserve because without it the chances of you not crashing one day because you have neglected your own well being could possibly happen

I hope you do know you are worth getting the understanding and support you need and will start speaking out and you can always come and talk to us to

Take Care x