Slowly getting better

[anon99]

I don’t panic everytime I have to leave home. I just get nervous and keep going. I’ve been showering without thinking about it. Trying to routine... Engaging in conversation more- I even woke up in a good mood. I’m getting use to these feelings (well most of them) I’m reminding myself my leg cramp is just that. The physical symptoms- chest pain and heart pain still get me but I try to remind myself I’ve felt it before. Like right now. But I’ll talk to my GP about it Monday to get some heart testing to reassure me maybe. But the thoughts- round and round we go. Causing me to second guess myself and then I fight with my thoughts about my feelings. (What if’s) what if it’s different this time.. so, what if? I’m training myself to just be okay with it. But the chest pain off and on is a struggle. Think statistics- rational- but do those even exist?

[Agora1]

You know anon, healing comes when we rationally start questioning our symptoms.

Talking it through. Figuring it out without going into panic. You've come a long way my dear. xx

[anon99 in reply to Agora1]

I’m trying. xxx so hard.