Been struggling with depression, anxiety and depersonalization for going on 9 months now. Been in and out of therapy, now taking lexapro, buspirone, and risperidone for about 6 months. The depersonalization has gone away for the most part but I still feel like I'm just floating through life. I feel like nothing really matters and somehow make it through every day. Time seems strange to me now, I have memory issues and time seems to just be passing by. I go out and do things now and then but I'm pretty much stuck in the same routine. Every day feels the same and something just always feels off. I have pretty bad health anxiety and constantly worry about dying. I just wish I could go back to my carefree, outgoing self but I've really been struggling. Any comments would definitely help. I really wish I could stop taking my meds as well. I know they've helped but also feel like they've blunted my emotions and are causing my memory issues.
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Hi there your in the right place for discussion on depression and anxiety! I myself has suffered from both for years been on several different meds settling on venlafaxine which sort of works! If your not happy with your meds please don't stop them without seeing your doctor as the withdraw can be rough at least your doctor can give you something better that will help you in the long term! The health anxiety can be bad I find I worry about the least thing even to the point I think I'm suffering from any type of ailment! I truelly wish you all the best and hope you get the help you need take care david
I am sorry about how you feel! I have felt the same way you do. Life can be very hard. Have you tried therapy? Meeting with a therapist can be very helpful. I would recommend exercise too, or walking outside. If you do not like your medications talk to your doctor about changing them. Or maybe change your doctor if you think things are not improving. Please do not stop your medications on your own. One thing I find helpful is listening to sermons. I listen to Joel Osteen but there are other options. I hope you help yourself. And I hope you feel better real soon. God bless you!