Help With Diagnosis/Thoughts?

[Ksmithfield]

Thread Warning: Disscussion of ED and OCD/Anxiety. If you know that any of these topics can be harmful to you in any way- please do not read this post.

So I’ve had an extremely rough week, and it seems that I’m in the Prozac “poop out” phase of the antidepressant which I’m all too familiar with. I’ve started noticing my ocd and eating patterns getting intertwined- and I’m genuinely concerned that I have an eating disorder. The first part of it is that I’m actually terrified of food- I’m afraid that it’s contaminated of has glass in it which I know stems from the ocd.

However recently, I stated spitting, especially when I eat food. I’ll start to chew food and then spit it out- even if I’m genuinely enjoying because I’m afraid it contains something harmful. I often (gross warning) spit it out, examine it, and determine which part of it is safe to eat. It’s almost like I have to check if it’s cooked as well, and then double and triple check it. I’m afraid of eating most food and have been eating small quantities since these behaviors began, or I just won’t eat at all. I sometimes think to myself that I enjoy not eating, which is not true- but who knows.

What really worried me is that today I made myself throw up after eating. I was afraid of the contaminants and thought I should just throw it up instead of digesting it.

I’m just all over the place and wondering if it’s just ocd or something more?

Thanks for reading and helping out!

[Dolphin14]

Sounds like a tough time.

I think the best thing to do is see the doctor. This is something you want professional help with sooner rather than later. You don't want this to continue. It's not healthy.

[Ksmithfield in reply to Dolphin14]

Thank you! I went to my psychiatrist yesterday and she seems to think I’m more just afraid of the food in general, but also I’m trying to get a therapist to help figure this out.

[Dolphin14 in reply to Ksmithfield]

Excellent