Its been a long time

I know its been a year now from when i last posted. If you followed my journey you will know what i will be talking about. its been two years now that my kids got took it all started at the first week on the first month 2017 and in august 2017 my mum got my two older kids and in December a week or 2 before Christmas my mum got my 4 month old baby. i been throw a hell of a lot as a young person. my mantel health fucked up everything for me in 2016 i broke down i could no longer take it things were getting to much for me i suffer from anxiety depression and pure o if you dont know what pure o is is unwanted thoughts you can look it up on youtube if you what to know more about it any way 3 things attacking me it was hell and my bf was on weed and it was bad so i had a lot going on all at ones. i lost so much i lost my self with it. when my kids got took i had to get help i had to try and get my self back. i still struggle sometimes. iam now going to change my tablets i been on for 2 years as i need stronger ones its hard sometimes any way iam trying my best to get my life back i am allowed to get my kids back only if the court sees that iam ok to have them back i will need my own place to live a job and my mantel health will need to be under control. the past is killing me thou memory's keep on going on and on in my head about the good and bad times sometimes its like reliving it. it puts me down i feel so sad and low feel like crying even thou everything is good now and i see my kids i spend time with them and so on but the past just does not live me alone. i did not used to be like this until 6 or so months ago it all started . for now this is the update as its long.

[Agora1]

glitterangel, I am so glad you wrote with an update. I have thought about you

so many times and wondered how you were doing. It was a long stressful journey

for you and I can understand how difficult it is to let go of the past memories of what

you've been through. I do remember praising you every step of the way and hoping

that one day you would have your family back. You have come far in these past

couple years. Changing your medication and continued therapy may be what you

need right now as well as addressing the PTSD you had to have gone through.

I'm happy that you get to spend time with your children and can be assured that

they are in good hands with your mom. Give yourself a little more time to heal.

Don't be hard on yourself. You are a incredible person whom I respect in fighting

for a good life for yourself and your family. Thank you for updating us. You know

I always have supported you and believe that your dream is right around the corner.

Stay Positive. xx

[Hidden in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much it means a lot to me what you have said.

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

glitterangel, you are a survivor, never forget that.

Sending you my love xx