Depression/Anxiety

[Anonymouslyme]

I’m 17 years old and I’ve hit rock bottom I’m not happy anymore. 6th grade I used to get cyber bullied by girls whom I attended school with some were even supposed to be my friends everyone hated me over a boy who they thought I had sexual relations with. 7th grade I made a new friend only for her to end up hurting me. 8th grade I became bestfriends with a boy and we were bestfriends for two years only to be betrayed AGAIN. 9th grade new school and a lot of people disliked me, but I never did anything or said anything to anyone even the staff had their bones to pick with me. I stopped going to school because I couldn’t handle the way I’ve been treated and to be alone in those situations it hurt. My dad never cared He would just tell me to ignore what other people say I was always too worried about friends to him. Though that wasn’t the case. 10th grade I was diagnosed with anxiety/depression and I was prescribed to Lexapro we then moved to another town and the same thing is just happening here I’m being singled out and someone always has something mean or smart to say so I stopped going. My dad makes me feel like trash everyday he doesn’t understand how bad I’ve been hurt and how hard it is for me to just “ignore it” and on top of that my older sister has my little sister and I taking care of her 8 year old at home. My nephew is a kid but he’s no angel he’s so disrespectful. My sister has always been very bitchy towards me she’s always treated her friends better than family even when her friend talked trash about me she forgave her.and growing up whenever I had boyfriends or friends she’d always try to put me down or embarrass me in front of them. I could never discuss my feelings with her cause she doesn’t care or brushes them off and makes things about her just the other day we had gotten into an argument because I didn’t want her to wear my expensive jacket and she starts calling me a b*tch and says I’m a bum and much more mean things. She had always been wearing my clothes since I was 11 and even letting her friends wear and take my clothes and never return them this has been ongoing for years now. Bottom line is I have no one and every area of my life is going terribly wrong. I don’t know what to do because I am so depressed. If I can’t be happy at home or even school how will I be happy? Who do I talk to? I don’t have anyone just my mom, dad, and sisters. My moms sick and my dad would never understand and my sisters just don’t care about how I feel. What do I do?? I’m at a point where I don’t see anything getting better for me and I don’t wanna be here.

[Kkimm]

Hi

You are going through a really tough time at present and I really feel for you. I am really sorry to hear your mum is sick and your dad is finding it difficult to understand.

Perhaps it would help you to start to try to help your mum and spend time with her. Perhaps you are doing this already so sorry if I have got that wrong. You do not say what she is sick with. If you focus on what she is going through it may help to take your mind off all your own problems. I certainly find it helps me to focus on someone else when I am feeling overwhelmed by my own worries.

Is there a counselling service at your school, it may help to talk things through there.

I am sorry to hear you are having problems getting to school as it will be so important not to miss school if at all possible.

You have alot on your plate having to look after your older sisters 8 year old along with your little sister. Could you and your little sister do some fun things together sometimes. Take him to the park for a picnic and when free from looking after him do some other things together. My guess is that your little sister would love that.

It is very hard when you are young and suffering from anxiety. Cyber bullying is really horrible and you have all my sympathy at having gone through this. Try not to let these bullies get to you, easier said than done. But they are not worth it and are probably doing it because they feel bad about themselves deep down.

Your dad probably finds it difficult to understand what you are going through and has lots of worries of his own.

Perhaps you should talk it through with your GP, they may be able to suggest some therapy that would help.

You are going through a difficult time right now but things will get better so never give up hope.

I so hope you feel better soon.

My thoughts are with you.

Kim

[momonthego2019]

You have definitely gone through a lot at your young age. This world can be so cruel however don't you ever think that you need to be removed from it just because the other people in the world make the world a terrible place. You have survived up to this point. Soon you will be 18, an adult, and can leave your parents house if you want. There are so many things you can start doing. Get a job and start saving your money. You can also speak to your counselor at school about career and education options. You have a whole life ahead of you. Don't let the people around you, dictate your happiness. Things will get better.