Health Anxiety relapse: fungal meningitis

[Misg]

Since my last post I have improved massively. I have cut down on hand washing to the point my hands are back to normal and even better than before. I do not freak out every time I have a fear of being ill or catching something, I do not obsess over people coughing near me I just simply cover my nose with a scarf and turn my back to them. I try not to come on here when I get worried or get carried away with Google when my health is acting up.

There are more improvements but there is alot to be improved because I still get worried over catching stuff.

I feel like I have relapsed in the last two weeks. My latest one is fungal meningitis I can't shake it off because they said you can catch that if your immune system is weak and by inhaling it from fungal spores of bird droppings and contaminated soil.

We have a gas meter outside that is behind the bin and on the ground which is soil and grass. The area was not too bad but there is a hole underneath the gas meter where there is alot of insects and mud. NOW there is new bird droppings on top of all the soil and meter and insects. I consistently have to go out and put the charged gas card in the meter and breathe all of that in and now I am just incredibly nervous about getting ill with fungal meningitis today because it is so windy and the new bird droppings.

My immune system has been through alot in the last year.

I am trying not to get worried but this one I can't shake off because I feel like the meter area plus my immune system being weak has put me at risk.

Any advice on how I can get this off my mind would be helpful. Thank you.

[TriggerPoint]

Getting Sick By Catching Germs ?* I Have To Tell Myself The Truth. There Are GERMS Everywhere & Anywhere I Go In Life. Even In My Home. I Can't Live In A Bubble & Who Am I To Think When It's My Time To Go I Can Choose When, Where, & How ?* I'm No Better Than Anybody Else. GERMS Have Been Around Since This World Got Here. In Fact, Germs Are An Important Part Of Life. [ of course you don't go out looking to get the worst germs you can find ] But many times when the body gets sick from a germ. It builds the immune system to fight that germ & become immune to it's attacks later in life. If not ? The very first germ we are exposed to would kill us and nobody would be here.

Remember when we where all kids ? Heck ! "WE" where walking germs !* We would swim in dirty rivers, play in germ ridden playgrounds, eat dirt, pick our noses and didn't care where we put it, play in dog pens, pet animals, & everything in between... Sure we went through our sicknesses ! But ? Here we are !*

We never worried about going back and doing it all again. But this time we didn't get sick like last time. Heck, our parents had to make sure we cleaned behind our ears in the tub.

I don't know what happens when we become adults. We played in the rain. Now ? We act like we dread getting wet as though rain is somekinda acid falling from the sky. Think about it. Germs are part of the cycle of life. Some good, some bad. We only got this one life. But we decide whether to live it or not. Heck, I fight with Anxiety Disorder & EVERYBODY Has Some Form Of OCD In Certain Areas & Don't Even Realize It. I Don't Know All There Is About This Anxiety. But ? I KNOW That That Rain Outside Is Just Water So Why Would I Be Afraid To Just Get Wet. I'm Sure This City Water In The Showers I Take Is Far Worse & I Don't Give It A Thought. So Why The Rain.

Prayers For Ya !*

[Misg in reply to TriggerPoint]

Thank you. I have become so anxious about these things cause my health isn't on the level as what it once was so I feel a bit, for lack of a better word, vulnerable health wise. I am coaching myself through these things more and more and I am alot better than what I was but I still have my moments where I do freak out. Thank you so so much for your message.

[TriggerPoint in reply to Misg]

You Are Going To Be Fine...& I Am VERY GLAD You've Come This Far !* Germs Are In Life For A Purpose... Yes, Even The Bad Ones & The Majority Of The Bad Ones Are Actually Necessary For Our IMMUNE SYSTEMS To Develop Resistance. Just Think. If You Were Born & Raised In A Germ Free Environmental Bubble Until Say, Age 18. Then Suddenly ? Somebody Popped THAT Bubble. Do You Actually Think Your Survival Rate Would Be Higher ? [ pause and calmly think about that ]... Most Likely NO. In Fact It Would Be Lower. Why ? Your Body Would Have Never Been Able To Develop The Immunity Needed By Being Exposed To Even The Most Simplest Of Germs....[ pause & calmly think about that also ]... Heck, An Ordinary Cold Could Take You Out.... Being Afraid Of ALL Viruses & Germs Is Like Trying To Live In That Bubble. You Are Better Off Living Outside That... Nobody Wants Serious Viruses & Bacterial Infections In Life... But Just Think... Your "Developed Immune System" From All The Bacteria & Germs Around You, & Sicknesses You've "Had", WOULD Be Essential In Responding To A Deadly Illnesses & Would Actually "Assist" In Your Chance Of Survival.

Prayers For Ya~*