I’m afraid that my panic attacks and anxiety are turning into depression. I find myself not enjoying myself anymore. Things I used to really love doing (going to Target for example) I find that I don’t want to do anymore. Or I have to force myself to want to do it.
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That is common. The anxiety can start making us afraid to do things and we get closed off. Have you listened to Claire Weekes? She has free audible books on YouTube.
Ya I bought the book that’s someone suggested. It helped but I’m still struggling
Addds, most people with anxiety disorder get depressed about having anxiety. But it's a secondary depression and it will resolve when the anxiety is overcome. You say you bought the Claire Weekes book and it helped and you're still struggling. Nobody recovered from anxiety just by reading her book. To recover one has to practice 'acceptance' with persistance daily over many weeks or months. Yes, it takes time to bring complete recovery but there are no quick fixes unless you take the route of meds - and they don't actually cure they bring respite for as long as you take the tablets.
I recommend you revisit the book.
I too have spells like that. I say spells, because thankfully they don’t last too long. Meditation helps. Also starting a gratitude journal. I just started writing any and everything that I was grateful for. It’s true there are a lot of things that are scary and sad in life, but there are also so many things that are wonderful and joyous. It’s so easy to get caught up in all the gloom and doom as it’s everywhere. Takes a little more digging for the good stuff. While digging you’ll find lots of good stuff and before you know it you’ll be feeling lighter. Hang in there friend. All is well and will be ok.