Quitting smoking with OCD

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In December I quit smoking, cold turkey and haven’t relapsed...yet. I live with obsessive compulsive disorder though more obssive than compulsive. And there is the problem, I am OBSESSING about smoking, I can’t stop thinking about it, to the point where it’s actually painful, it’s like I’m on day 2 all over again, I don’t want to smoke, I hated it, every penny wasted, every chest cold that wouldn’t go away, I am aware of all the health benefits of quitting but why can’t I stop obsessing, I feel like I’ll die if I don't have one and I know that’s a load, I am desperately fighting the irrational part of my brain but I feel like I’m loosing what do I do???