I think I am going crazy...

[plushiesaremyjam]

This all starts from a few weeks ago while I was reading an article about schizophrenia trying to understand the mental disorder a friend of mine is showing signs for. She hears voices, thinks she can see into the "Enth(?) dimension" (As in seeing into other dimensions like lord of the rings type stuff) and she has a "friend" named Charlotte that comes into her room and scares her but she doesnt understand that it isnt normal. Her mom doesnt believe her and her I am playing the friend who everyone can talk to. So as I am reading this article the guy said that one of the things that happened before he went into true psychosis was that he heard random phone ringing that wasnt there. Another thing I have read was that people who are kinda losing it think they have a super power like thinking they can tell the future or something. Now I dont think I have a super power or anything but I keep thinking I am having Deja Vu like "Oh man I think Ive been in this situation before" or "Ive read this book before why dont I remember any of it but it looks weird so maybe I didnt read it?" (its a manga book of a popular anime I probably didnt read the book and just went off the anime, something I would do) so I just hope I'm not gonna get it into my head "Yes I can see the future haha!" type of deal. I also havent been sleeping well but I am also a high schools tudent duel enrolled into a community college and I just got done with my College classes and now that they are over I have gotten a lot more sleep and its been going better. Now...so this morning I was laying in bed watching youtube videos when BAM I heard what sounded like an iPhone text tone. You know the "Ding" text tone. So at first I was like thats really weird cause I am home alone and only my phone is here and I dont use that text tone. So Im like "Oh god I am gonna go psychotic" well as the day went on I had a tiny anxiety attack (over thinking as usual) and I went to go play a video game. Well as I am sitting there getting my mind off of things I hear what sounds like the ring tone of an apple watch. My mom has one (I am 18 and a senior in highschool so I still live at home) and for xmas we got her a new apple watch and I thought she left her old one at home. Well there was no apple watch to be seen as my mom took her new one and the old one to her store today to hook it up and so now I am in a spiral of "I am going psychotic and I am aware of it" well I know that people who have psychotic episodes do not realize that they are indeed losing it. And that anxiety is a lot like psychosis and stuff...But i do think that hearing my name in crowds sometimes, like when Im going off into lala land at like the mall of something while walking around I sometimes hear someone say my name, literally only happens once and I dont think anything of it. Cause its the public and other people have the same name as me. I dont think I am going psychotic, and Its not like "Come into the void" or anything when I hear my name, its more of a someone wants to talk to me type of thing. Sorry this post is so long. I am just getting scared of developing schizophrenia or something...thank you in advance

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Hi plushiesaremyjam. I don't think you are going crazy I think reading that article made you nervous and paranoid. It's like me when someone has a health problem I get paranoid and I start feeling like certain symptoms means I gave what they have I think the same is happening to you. Just relax take deep breaths and try not to think about anything negative and keep away from articles that might upset you in any way

[Hopeful-Tinkerbell]

Anytime you read about illnesses you will relate to signs of them. You had those stuck in your head. Your anxiety was playing tricks on you. I have deja vu moments all the time. I’m not sure if it’s anxiety or medication side effects or what but it’s quite common with many people.

My grandmother was a strong, loving Godly woman. In my opinion hardly anyone more perfect. She had premonitions though. She lived on a very rural farm with no electricity or anything. Yet every morning she would come downstairs even as a child and tell them exactly a person that would be coming to visit. She had no possible way of knowing. People did not call ahead or couldn’t back in the day. When my grandfather died from a severe motor vehicle accident she knew before they told her. It’s all about having your brain open to receiving these messages we all can get we are just too busy or not open to receiving. It’s not psychotic or a super power. I was on my way to an exercise class and all of a sudden was hit with a strong feeling of needing to turn around and go back home. It was odd but I had to turn around and as soon as I turned off into a parking lot to turn around my phone rang and my husband had fallen off a roof and was hurt severely. That was far from psychotic. I attribute that to God sending me a message so I could go help my husband. If I had gotten in the pool for my exercise class I would have been completely out of touch for at least an hour. Who really knows. I don’t feel their is any psychosis involved at all. It’s all about being perceptive.

I truly think there are several ways to explain what happened to you. Anxiety though and letting those ideas into your subconscious I feel were to blame. You are not psychotic. You sound very educated and intelligent to me. Perhaps you should convince your friend to speak to a therapist or doctor about her situation. It’s nice that you are being supportive but don’t let it influence you negatively.

Take care!