Only anxious when at home

[Laura221]

Hi everyone, I'm a 20 yo girl who studies at uni, but still lives at home. I have quite a history at home, with an aggressive dad towards me and my mom, my mom leaving when I was 14, and still a really bad relationship between my mom and dad (he sends texts to her that say 'I can't wait for the day that I will be able to dance on your grave' for example, and then I get to read those texts). I say this to show that my at-home situation isn't the best.

My anxiety started back in July, and at first I was anxious ALL of the time. I started seeing a counsellor, which has helped, but not as much as I hoped to.

Luckily, I have an amazing boyfriend with amazing parents, so I go a lot to his house. I notice that, when I'm at his house, I'm not anxious at all. And when I go out with friends/go to class and am able to go to sleep at his house in the night, I'm also not anxious out and about.

But when I'm at home, I'm anxious when I'm at home AND when I'm doing stuff with friends.

They always say you can't let the anxiety win and you can't run away from it and that you have to face it, but I've already even tried counseling together with my dad, and it hasn't helped.

Lastly, I would like to say that my dad hasn't been aggressive towards me for about a good 6 years, and that he's really nice to me, he literally does EVERYTHING for me, but still, I feel very anxious.

What do you guys think I should do?