Hello, I am a poz lad and have been suffering with health anxiety now for the past 18 months, following a panic attack while I was at the GP practice, which was badly handled. I was hospitalised just in case and diagnosed acute tonsillitis but I think it was just panic. I started hiv Meds soon after and it has made a difference to my lifestyle. For some time I thought I should change combination, which I have done a number of times. However, the fear of not being well when I am out and about has become so debilitating that I don't enjoy most things anymore. I have seen a psychologist and have tried some antidepressants but since these give me more side effects, I prefer not to take any. I am so self-absorbed in how my body feels that I am mostly detached from reality and I have had to take time off work. Now I worry as soon as I wake up that I won't have the energy to do much. If I go out I don't feel safe until I have returned home. And I have been feeling very dizzy and faint, although I have never fainted. I am thinking of quitting my job because it simply adds pressure to my weeks. I am a teacher. I also feel like my brain cannot take any new information and seem to have tunnel vision. I have had three eye tests and several specialist medical checks and all is good. I just don't feel myself anymore and have lost any drive or dream or enthusiasm. I don't think I am clinically depressed but feel stuck in a situation that, despite trying, I seem unable to change. I am not sure what physical symptoms anxiety can bring. I have read a lot about it but I just seem unable to justify feeling this way only because I am anxious. My brain does not rely on my body anymor despite the evidence doctors are providing.
Sorry for the long post but hope someone can perhaps give some advice. Thank you.