After thinking I was managing my anxiety for a while now it has flared up again . I had the first physical symptoms it was rearing it's ugly head about a week ago - head pressure etc and the. Wham in middle of conversation with tired overworked hubby it blew - heart flutters , stomach cramps etc .
I keep pretending it's not still there but my physical and mental capacity is taking over again.
So much going on had test for coeliac and bloods positive waiting on biopsies and when they did gastroscope they found helibactor pylori and duodenal ulcers - panic number one as two grandparents died of stomach cancer. Secondly I have brca 2 gene mutation and am awaiting an elcective oopherectomy and my mum has stage four cancer ( ovarian) couple that with the death of an acquaintance and my sister in law losing her baby and my brain is at the end of its tether .
I am uptight , highly strung and angry at everything . I have no capacity to mange time and be useful at home I am just circling at moment .
Sorry just needed to offload , don't want it to get as bad as last time x