I've had anxiety and panic disorder (as well as emetophobia) since 2011 (emetophobia all my life). I got therapy and help and was doing so so well. I found a new boyfriend and he was so uplifting and helped me so much that i didn't have a single panic attack for months! Then he moved to Canada for a year, and things started to become difficult. Because of him leaving i noticed my panic disorder coming back, i was having attacks again and i felt so low and annoyed because of it because i was doing so well! Then i took a huge step for anxiety and plucked up the courage to go out there and visit him in Canada. I took myself to the other side of the world. Out there i had a mix of good and bad times anxiety wise, but it came back stronger, after coming home he stopped communication with me and then ended the relationship without giving me a proper explanation as to why. Since then (June 2014) i have been an anxious mess, i'm now back at uni, and i know he is returning home soon and its making me go crazy, i'm having a panic attack every day, and usually more than one. I ALWAYS gag and retch and its so embarrassing, especially whilst out in public, I cant stop physically dry heaving and its really affecting my social life and being able to attend lectures. Feel like ive gone completely back to square one. I feel so low and worthless and just rubbish Another person i thought that cared about me just walking out my life. Anyone else gag/retch? and if so how do i prevent this?! The only thing i have to do is make myself gag so that it goes away.
Help please x