I didn't have anyone to talk to. My boyfriend is ignoring me, I can't talk to my parents or friends so what I did was cut myself again. I told my guy friend who has really strong feelings for me that I wouldn't do it again and I would stop for him but I couldn't. I had the urge to do it. It's the only thing I can control. It's like I can't talk to anyone bc everyone including my "boyfriend" who claims to "love me" but dose t show it. He's one of the main reasons why I cut myself. But he doesn't care. I know he doesn't. I don't want to break up with him bc I'm scared that I won't find anyone to "love" me like him. My OCD is really getting to me and one day it's just going to push me to the edge and I think that day is coming soon.