Overwhelmed in chaos

[WanderlustCitydust]

Idk how I made it this far sometimes. I feel like I just float through life because I'm lost. Since the time I was younger everything has always been difficult for me. Life, my life has been a struggle. Theres always a challenge for me to face, or I'm on the edge waiting for one.

I'm really just exhausted from trying everyday and worrying, just to do it again the next.

[LoveforAll41]

Howdy Wanderlust! I feel you, I often wonder how I have lived this long when sometimes getting up for the day just sounds so miserable. Looking back at my childhood I feel like I have rarely ever felt like things were going to be okay and I have been living 30+ years in a panic. It is so exhausting.

I have found that I often feel overwhelmed because I feel like I have to earn my worth as a human being by succeeding in the next thing - going to work and working hard, then coming home from work and working on school, let alone spend time with the kids, then get up and go to the gym before work... Do you have some treadmill like this that makes you feel like there is always a challenge to be faced?

[WanderlustCitydust in reply to LoveforAll41]

Good morning! ☀Same. I look for things that I can do to feel less miserable.

I have a plethora of challenges to overcome. If its not one thing, it's another.

I'm overwhelmed daily. It's a struggle trying to be on top of everything consistently. It's a cycle I'm trying to break, but sometimes it out of my hands.

I'm thankful for life, but damn there's not been a time where I wasn't worried about something. I can probably write a book of my troubles and journey this far.,except no happy ending lol

I'm sorry to hear, but What's made you feel like you lived in panic for 30+yrs?

I want to succeed in life because I want to be able to help others. My family first and foremost, but also the strangers I see struggling and the homeless. I would love to be able to give everything everyone needs. I understand life's hardships.

Thank you for your comment and I wish you a blessed & healing day! ✨💖