I’m ok but then I’m not

[Figgenhoffers]

I think the meanest part of depression is that when it goes away you think you can live a normal life and you get relationships and opportunities. But for me it destroys those things when it comes back. And this has been a pattern my entire life

[optimismrus]

It was hard for me to accept that depression would always be there, waiting for a chance to take over again. I had to learn skills that would help me avoid "falling into the pit" . Therapy, journaling, reading, groups (12-Step isn't just for alcoholics, some examples are CoDependents Anon,, Alanon, Adult Children of Alcoholics). We have to step out of our comfort zone to change who we are and how we think. I'm glad you shared your feelings and I wish you the best. 🥰

[Browny71]

I totally understand you figgenhoffers. I too seem to have it all together until I don’t and everything comes down crashing.

[Peerone]

I get that, oh I get that! Two years ago I was diagnosed with major recurring depressive disorder. It's been a thing all my life. But when I was given the diagnosis I found the most valuable resource to help me cope. A place called Robin's Hope (robinshope.org) This organization teaches resilience against trauma, with different coping skills. They have in-person groups 3 days a week (located in Chesterfield, VA and virtual groups 7 days a week. Many people will say I never had any trauma. Think again - one major trauma that is pretty universal is COVID-19 and how it impacted our way of life. I don't ever recall meeting anyone who hasn't had some emotional or physical trauma. The difference is all about how we handle it. Some people glide through, others like us do not. That's where we need all the help we can lay our hands and minds on.

Robin's Hope is free, there is no charge, no hidden fees, no insurance needed, just show up (you will need to register if you would like to attend virtually, but you can use a fictitious name if desired but will need an email address so the zoom link can be sent to log in, to the groups. This place has been so important in my path of recovery, that at 60 years old I am now a peer recovery specialist getting ready to take my certification.

I wish you all the best and hope you check out Robin's Hope (robinshope.org)

[jikreamer]

So so true. For me too. You are not alone.