How to tell family?

[cestmoiquiessaie]

My mom is so dialed into me and my state of mind, it's like were twins or something. She calls when I am struggling and knows I'm not doing well with depression. And I work my butt off to make sure people can't tell I am any different or anything until I can finally give in to it. When she asks how I'm doing and she KNOWS it's not great, I don't know how to tell her.

I have scared everyone in the past with mental hospital stays and really dark times. I don't want them to worry like that or relive the trauma I caused them during those times.

But lately I am so tired. Just mentally tired and that's always a first sign of a depression wave for me. It's like I get obsessed with my own thoughts in my own head and I get trapped in thought loops that aren't positive.

How do you tell your family members that you're not doing well but you're not 'there' yet? Like you're not dark and twisty enough to worry but you're not at your best?

[hypercat54]

What's wrong with 'I am ok and coping'? Then leave it at that. Its true after all.

I wouldn't go into detail as they probably wouldn't understand the difference and they would worry about you. Unless you need and want their support of course.