Blissfully unaware

[Blackcatfelix]

Hey all, lately I decided to take cannabis for my anxiety and I must say it helps alot. However, my overall mood seems to get hidden away underneath the suppression of my anxiety. Ive gotten to where my mental state has been depressed for awhile and I dont know where to go or who to talk to as my family straight up ignores me when I bring up problems Im having. My therapist is out of the office now for the next few weeks, and I feel all alone and helpless right now and my mind is just running on overdrive.

[CL3V3R-G1RL]

Welcome to the community!

Families often struggle with understanding anxiety and depression. Sometimes it's because the time they grew up in and just learned all the wrong things. And don't want to unlearn that. Like not communicating "feeling".

Anxiety never leaves you. Actually it's apart of you whether we like it or not. It's fight or flight response. We needed it to get out of danger. Problem is we are no longer in the jungle. We now live in a concrete jungle. There are no sabertooth tigers. Only deadlines to meet. That causes us stress and triggers our fight or flight. Problem is it has no where to go.

Cannabis can help lessen the effects of anxiety. But doesn't take it away. Only you can do that. You can get better at coping with it. Hope and Healing for your Nerves by Dr Claire Weekes is a great book for that. Check it sometime.

Depression well there are different kinds. It seems like yours is because of your anxiety. If your anxiety improves, chances are so does your depression cause you aren't in that state of mind anymore.

But know that this support group is open 24/7 though we may take a little while to respond. Some of us are long winded (ie me 😂)

Wishing you healing and peace 🫂❤️

[Blackcatfelix in reply to CL3V3R-G1RL]

Sadly my depression is not rooted in my anxiety but rather my bipolar, the anxiety is just an added issue. I feel alone in that I wish my family would listen to anything, but instead its gotten to where they tend to stay away from me because they dont wanna get dragged into my emotional issues. I dont see my therapist or doctor till July 5th, so these next couple weeks scare me because I feel Im slipping.

[CL3V3R-G1RL in reply to Blackcatfelix]

I can understand that. Families don't really understand what bipolar is. And think backing off would somehow solve the issue. And of course that's not how it works.

I'm sorry you are feeling alone. But know you are not alone, especially here.

I think maybe your therapist trusts in your ability that you can manage yourself just fine. I get it can be scary to not see your therapist for an extended period of time and that fear of losing whatever ground you may have covered and sliding back down.

But you don't have to worry about sliding because now you have a support group to help. Feel free to vent or ask for advice or support whenever you need.

I believe you can hold on until July. You got this.

[blackcat64013]

Hi Blackcatfelix,Thanks for your post.

I am sorry life is tough just now. I am glad you have reached out. I can only send you an e-hug from Australia 🫂

There is a relatively new phone number for help in the US... call 988.

The number works on the 911 principle but for mental health 24/7.

Hoping you get help you need to bounce back 🐈‍⬛

[PacoDennis]

It is more difficulty understanding why someone is suffering if there is visible signs of illness. When our illness is invisible and caused by emotional/mental state those people find it hard to relate, which makes us feel alone in our own suffering. That itself is scary also. Writing to this group will help you connect with others who DO understand and will truly help support you through difficult times.

Have you tried relaxation methods bot mental and emotional. It sounds like you might be panicking a bit so relaxing might help change that. If we can relax enough to have our mood change, then we can move on with a different outlook on life.

Also it is important to allow ourselves the flexibility to change. Sometimes we hang onto a certain frame of mind because of habit. It is OK to try new things, and to explore other ways of seeing life, so we do need to have an open mind.

I know for me, I have to be constantly aware and vigilant to keep my attitude more than half full.