The mail I sent from yesterday night...

My life is a train wreck and I want someone to put me to sleep.

[Shnookie]

I’m so sorry that U R going thru this. If U R in the U.S. , please call 988, the crisis warm line. They R supportive and compassionate. Do U have a therapist and R U on any meds ? These things will help U get thru your pain and suffering. U R brave to reach out to HU. People here. We’re here to support you.

[Hidden in reply to Shnookie]

No I'm not in US and this is the mail I sent frantically to the Samaritan.org. I'm in a real tight spot man but I don't want to go antidepressants route.

[Shnookie in reply to Hidden]

May I ask why you don’t want to take antidepressants ?

[Hidden in reply to Shnookie]

I've seen... They not as effective plus I can get hooked to it.

[Shnookie in reply to Hidden]

I understand what U mean However the proper balance of meds can put you in a better state of mind

[Hidden in reply to Shnookie]

It needs prescription to procure... And my parents won't allow me to get prescription... It's not that they orthodox it's quite opposite actually, but.. in general they think it's a state of mind.

[Shnookie in reply to Hidden]

I understand what U R saying. U can always reach out to us on HU

[Hidden in reply to Shnookie]

Yeah man ik.

[Vonus5591]

never give up - aim for next moment/day/year to recover

[Vonus5591]

please just think of yourself and take as much time as you need until back to self

[Hidden]

Hey undebatable

Well obviously nobody here can help you go to sleep and not would we want to, even though many of us can understand your position. But what we can be here for is to help you figure out how to lessen your pain how to get away from loneliness and how to feel better, if we possibly can.

Sure wish I would’ve found this group many moons ago. I did it all on my own and suffered mightly. I Went to ana hospital and I guess in someways got lucky.

I for one cannit offer any suggestions cause I don’t know anything about you . your diagnosis , your symptoms , why your lonely , your insurance ,what you’ve tried ,what you haven’t tried. All those things factor in to trying to solve a problem obviously

You sound desperate I was desperate in 2022 and when I went that hospital. They took care of me and like I said, I got lucky that they changed my meds all around to something nobody had ever tried and I walked out a different man.

Feeling so much better I can interact with people and I am doing my best to try to make friends cause I was lonely too and it’s slowly working .

If you have anything left, let us know what’s going on with you, so we can see if we can help. If you’re totally spent go to the hospital and check in and let them take care of you , then see if you can change your life.

Craig

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I have a health insurance but in my world it's taboo to go to hospital for mental health... Because men should be courageous.

I've been in depression once, came out unscathed with an enormous amount of self improvement.

I tried to make friends... I got em too... But... I'm just getting backstabbed man... My spine is hurt.. and I don't have a purpose to get out of the bed everyday because if the world is so unfazed with the violence... Sorry man I don't want to explain further.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I understand the best I can. Let me or us know if we can help in ANYWAY

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Yeah man... I'll let YK... Btw in my country seeking professional help is super costly so there is that barrier too even if I'm from an upper middle class household.

But still thanks for encouraging words.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Cool. Where do you live. Curious.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I mean anywhere in Asia... The specialised treatment like a mental health consultant charges much high fees.

[Ellamaye]

You ok?

[Hidden in reply to Ellamaye]

...

No I'm not... Thanks for asking man... I hope you and your loved ones don't end up in my place ever.

[75pink]

I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. Hang in there and please reach out for help. Asking for help was very hard for me, but over time, it made a world of difference. Praying for you 🙏

[Hidden in reply to 75pink]

People say I have to do it myself... Instead of talking to me... So here I am... Streching my hands to all of you.

[ItsJustMe070]

While I feel and understand that we have to keep going. Whether it's because you believe in God, because of children, because you don't want your parents to have to bury you or your little sister thinks you are a super hero.. to someone you are their entire world and they wouldn't make it if they lost you. Even if it doesn't feel like it.

I would love to end the constant pain and upset stomach I live. My ex is a narcissist and he has been charged with domestic violence in 2017 and we split in 2019. He wanted custody of the kidd but knew he couldn't get it because of the DV so he accused me of the unthinkable and I haven't seen my children since 12/18/23 whom I was a stay at home Mom (worked 4am-8am so I would be there when they were awake) for 17 years. They all have special needs and IEPs. I have nothing left to breath for as I wait for them to clear me while my ex has convinced the oldest and middle I think they are horrible and they are not even talking to me anymore. The 10 year old had his last Christmas believing in Santa and I missed it.

The one reason I can't do it - when we first moved here I worked at 911. I will never forget the sound of a daughter screaming in Spanish (I had to get an interpreter on the line so I had no idea what she was saying) that her father hung himself. I didn't understand the words but I definitely could hear and feel her pain.... I couldn't do that to anyone. Her pain tore out her soul and it is a scream that still rings in my head to this day.

We have to keep going..for them.

[Hidden in reply to ItsJustMe070]

Man that's traumatic... Why the world becomes so insufferable.