I’m ashamed of where I am in life.

[hardeyjokey]

I constantly feel like I am stagnant and that my life isn’t progressing and it has gotten to a stage where I’m scared/ashamed of running into people I went to school with. I relocated after my wedding leaving my job and school (PhD) to where my husband resides (he insisted) only for me to be fully financially responsible for the house old, I have a son few months ago and the financial obligations increased with no help. All my savings is spent on food and basic things and I am even afford to do anything nice for myself.

I have anxiety about my future and that of my kid, when I see how well my mates are doing, I get depressed

[gerrerd]

Be yourself, what other people think, is their illusion. They are to busy thinking about them selves any way. We create our own reality, look at ways to improve you, And be grateful for things you have and the people in your life.

[LadyZen]

I went through a similar situation. It sounds like you might need a therapist or a marriage counselor to talk through your circumstances and figure out what you need to do to find some peace with your current situation.

[hardeyjokey in reply to LadyZen]

I think so too but therapy is not easy accessible in my country and the available ones are super expensive. I am trying to make peace with my situation in my own way, I am trying hard to get a job and I am doing something nice for myself no matter how little even if is just something like going to a cinema or having a nice dinner in a restaurant.