It’s been a week since I started talking with you kind people and I wanted to share my experience with you.
What is anxiety why do we feel like we do ?
It’s a very personal question in my own life I have not been kind to myself I can be there for everyone else except myself I’m told I give the best advice and a very good listener but I cannot apply this to myself. Whenever I am listening to someone unburden there problems I am like a sponge it’s almost as if I’m taking there problems and making them my own I carry them.
And then I find myself overwhelmed overburdened and ultimately anxious and depressed a like and sponge I can only carry so much water until it spills out of me and not into a sink or a bucket but it will come out all over the floor and create a chaos.
my freinds don’t be like a sponge be like water listen to people let them take it out from them but let it pass over you like water over rocks that way only over a long time will your edges be smoothed over rather than the sponge carrying to much liquid.
so this is my new promise to myself yes I will be like water I will be there for the people that I care about but no longer will I soak it up to breaking point I will be like a mountain with the the water passing over it .
the mountain knows water has passed by it but I does not try to hold it instead I lets it pass by without disturbance .
The mountain just like life has clean water and dirty water passing over it again the mountain knows that the even when the dirty water flows over it it will not be there forever and clean will take its place in either case it does not try to hold it it simple lets it pass by.
the mountain experiences storms and small parts of it can fall away or be broken off but for the loss of these pieces is it not still a mountain.
likewise when the mountain feels the sun on its peak does it not remain a mountain.
What I’m trying to say is that we are our own mountain we are natural creations and we are not meant to hold onto everything that comes through our path. That is a dam and its man made and unnatural and when man made dams try to hold back to much water they also break and chaos ensues.
Friend’s do not be a dam or a sponge be like water passing over your mountain weather it’s a storm or sun clear waters or dirty it’s temporary.
in all of the above be grateful
Introduction - Mountain Boy, Denver, CO
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