it's funny....

[mizzou7016]

how things can come full circle....it's funny how one word can stir up so many emotions, thoughts and feelings....that word for me today was mainstream.....wish it were that easy....nothing about the help I need is easy....

[LadyZen]

My trigger word is "No". My ex would always start off a sentence with "No" to disagree with me, even on topics that we agreed on. I'm so glad to be rid of him.

[mizzou7016 in reply to LadyZen]

Working in Corrections for over 2 decades has made me a calloused and sometimes cynical person.....I have a mainstream psychiatrist....in a world where i need an extraordinary person who understands the struggles i go through.....can never really make my mainstream understand my 'perils',,...he tries to understand....it just doesnt usually turn out that way

[Mumbutterfly in reply to mizzou7016]

Have you tried to find one who specializes in trauma? Or a therapist who does?

[Hidden]

People need extra care or special care - they need additional help - wish there was more professionals that actually sought to understand a person's needs and wants. Alittle more attention on the person and observation should yield some helpful inputs. Don't take everything on your shoulder, allow and ask others for help. Going that extra mile helpful but you need support in order to do it.

[mizzou7016 in reply to Hidden]

but the help I need is more specialized because of my chosen profession.....sometimes when I'm with my mainstream mental health professional.....I feel even more anxious after the appointment than I do before......I've learned over the last 2 years how important self care is.....I will never go backwards on it....but it can also be detrimental if a person doesn't have a general understanding

[litethatnevergoesout]

I think you said in a previous post that there might be an opportunity to talk with a therapist over the telephone that is qualified in the realm of public safety?

[mizzou7016 in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

yes....but i'm not as comfortable with a phone or telemed visit as I am with a face to face visit.....working to overcome that but it's a struggle

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to mizzou7016]

that’s understandable. it does have a sense of depersonalization. you want and need someone that understands you can meet in person. I’m sorry you’re left all alone to sort through these difficult emotions.

[mizzou7016 in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

oh believe me....I am not alone....went through a program last year that really helped me develop a network....an sometimes my problems are mainstream.....so I get the benefit....just struggling a little bit....has been a tough couple of weeks

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to mizzou7016]

anything in particular these last few weeks you might want to share here? I want to help as much as I can. I’m glad to hear about the program that helped you develop a network. is there anything you can draw off of that right now?

[CLB1125]

I’m just the opposite. I would rather talk to someone who can’t see me. I see an online therapist and it has taken me some 6 months to just be able to open up to her.

[LifeIsThePitts]

I'm so sorry if I've triggered you into an escalated episode...I feel really bad 😞

[mizzou7016 in reply to LifeIsThePitts]

Not me. I'm actually in a 'good place' right now