Just check in.. feeling a little dissociated I guess.

[Montana136]

Hello Community I hope everyone is finding some healing in some way or another. I have noticed on my path of moving forward trying to get out of this severe depressive episode I've had some very satisfying successes. I was able to reduce my negative thinking or at least determine when it's happening so that I can interrupt it. Lots of little exercises have helped me and set me on a good path. I've recently confronted simultaneously three difficult personal problems I am actually needing to address not all at once but they are all very pressing. So now I think I might feel disassociated, numb, reluctant to move or make a decision in these areas. I'm not sure what that is exactly. Maybe overwhelmed at the moment. I'm still determined to move forward but I sense myself putting things off. I allowed myself to take a break but now I'm like on my 4th or 5th day of wanting to take a break and I need to boost my mood again. I recovered from episodic depression so many times in a lifetime that I know it can be a very forward and backward process. Just needing motivation. I guess encouragement. So there you have it. Hope you all are taking as much care as you can of yourselves. Please respond if you feel the urge. Thank you be well.

Montana

[gajh]

Give yourself credit for your very satisfying successes. It sounds like you are going through a lot all at once. I can understand that that would be overwhelming. I am glad that you have taken a break. I am sorry you don't have motivation now. I will certainly offer my encouragement. I know you said you have three things that you need to address. Can you try to take them one at a time and try to break it down into baby steps. Just try to do a little each day. Any accomplishments should lead towards more motivation and the ability to take the next baby step. Be gentle with yourself. I am sure you are doing the very best you can. Keep focusing on the successes you have already achieved.

[Montana136 in reply to gajh]

Thank you gajh, I am a huge fan of baby steps. Basically that's how I begin. I feel more motivation today than in the last 5 days so I'm feeling good about that. Yeah these three difficult situations are definitely each individual and I have prioritize them as to which one is the first to address. I so appreciate your encouragement reaching out. Thank you for your support. Be well

Montana

[gajh in reply to Montana136]

I am so glad to hear that you have more motivation today. It is good that you were able to prioritize your difficult situations and can tackle them one by one. Baby steps do work. I am glad that you are here to know that you aren't alone. Keep reaching out we are here for you.

[Montana136 in reply to gajh]

Thank you so much. Had a good day today! Hope you did too. Take care and be well

Montana

[gajh in reply to Montana136]

I am so glad to hear that you had a good day today. Yes I did too. Thank you.

[catsrock]

I think your body is telling you you need more of a break. I hope you can rest and find the motivation you need.

[Montana136 in reply to catsrock]

thanks catsrock You are absolutely correct I did figure this out maybe in the last 24 hours I have actually been trying to move forward at a pace that was feverish. I did indeed overwhelm myself. That is exactly what happened and now I've noticed that it has been a consistent pattern of mine. I'm making connections that I think are beneficial to my healing process. But really I guess the important lesson I have learned is, regulating your pace. My body and my mind both telling me I need to rest. Thank you for your awareness you hit it right on the head. Have a great day be well

Montana

[Hidden]

Hang in. I feel your pain. And I know your pain. There so many of us out there..we need to support each other.

[Montana136 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you bucketlady, I am encouraged by your support. You are right everybody needs it. That's why I like this community you guys understand me most of my family and friends do not. I've found this website to be very beneficial to my recovery. Thank you again have a good day and be wellMontana