Hi, I’m new here

[MarileeKemp]

I have always struggled with anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember. Over the last year I have developed anorexia and decided recently to take a leave from work to seek treatment. I guess I’m just looking to make a connection with someone who understands how overwhelming anxiety can be. My family is worried about me and I feel like I’m letting my 7 year old son down who I share custody with my ex husband. I guess I’m just lonely and am looking for a friend.

[012703060610]

I’m here! You are joining a very supportive group. In some ways I’ve developed anorexia due to the inability to eat any solids. My stomach is paralyzed. I too have three kids with a nightmarish ex to co parent with. My kids are 11, 10, and 6. Parenting is a brutal job even without struggles. Lots of highs and lows. Anxiety is the worst….especially if you can’t pinpoint the exact reason. Being ill and stressed certainly can lead to depression quickly. I’m glad to hear you have a supportive family worried for you. Plus you wAnt the help which you need to realize is a huge step in your recovery process. Many folks will be able to relate to you! Get better for your son. You aren’t letting him down….it is the old phrase of putting your air mask on first. Glad you joined!

[MarileeKemp in reply to 012703060610]

I’m so sorry you’re going through all that. I also take care of my blind mother so I understand how hard it must be taking care of your littles while you’re hurting. The anxiety just comes out of nowhere lately and it’s so overwhelming, the physical symptoms are the worst the tingling, shortness of breath. Anyway thank you for taking the time to respond to my post🙂

[012703060610 in reply to MarileeKemp]

I'll be here as often as you need! I just saw you lost some loved ones as well and I can't even imagine dealing with everything on your plate. I really hope you can find the help you deserve. I don't say need....you deserve the help. Care taking can take a huge toll. When my kiddos anxieties are high, then I am totally lost with it all. I worry that my mental health struggles will be passed on to them. We are all here as often as you need!

[hopeforjoy]

You'll find understanding people here who've walked in your shoes and therefore understand what you're going through. Welcome, and let us know how we can encourage you.

[Hominid711]

Dear Marilee, I hear you. Anxiety is the devil. Can you tell us a bit more? How is there no control over your life at present?

Hominid711

[MarileeKemp in reply to Hominid711]

My family is struggling with two unexpected deaths of family members. I was already struggling though from being the caretaker of my blind mother and autistic son. I feel very much powerless over their struggles. I haven’t been taking care of myself though and I just have gotten so bad so fast. I saw my doctor last week and made some medication changes and am waiting to hear back from some outpatient programs but man this is an intense episode, random trembling, chest pains, the works. Thank you for taking the time to respond to me 🙂

[LoveforAll41]

Hi Marilee. I am another in the boat of long-term anxiety. I often resort to eating my emotions, so the opposite of anorexia for me. I do find that managing the anxiety and depression manages the eating problem most of the time. Kudos on seeking treatment. I was in the pits last year and quit my job, luckily my wife sent me to a treatment center for a few weeks. (I just went to a mental health focused one since eating disorder places anywhere near me were exclusively for women). Things have been much better since, not perfect, but I have been working.

Know that you have immense value simply BEing. I wish you hope, peace, and strength

[designguy]

Hello and good for you for reaching out and know that you will be supported here in your journey, and we know it takes courage to reach out, i'm glad to hear that you realize you nned help and are taking steps to get it.