I got sick

[Against_the_current]

Rn at the sanatorium for my anxiety but it's 4 am and i started throwing up and having insane pain in my stomach. Firstable i thought it was anxiety but I'm physically sick this time. This would explain why i was so anxious these days. I just can't. Since childhood this sickness has gotten the best of me. I can't travel, i can't work, i can't go out. I get sick. It's like a curse. Everyone expected me to have outgrown this but i just can't. I'm terrified. I have this sickness since childhood and it triggers me. Idk whether to go home with triggering mom or try to make it alone in my university city. I don't have insurance rn as i graduated and am unemployed. Should probably have someone go pay it for me. I have one more day here. Grandma is concerned but seems annoying to me. Rn everything is annoying and triggering. Idk whether to go home, my GP is there and mom, but she's triggering. Idk how long it will take me and how bad it is and for how long i will recover. Also i would bother sis throwing up at 4am. But idk if i can take care of myself on my own

[SoporRose]

AtC,

I am confused about the sanitarium. The definition of such a place in the Merriam-Webster dictionary is "an establishment for the medical treatment of people who are convalescing or have a chronic illness." And that's where I thought you and your grandmother were going and that you would stay for a while to get some help for the both og you. Will you explain the purpose of your stay there?

Your apartment seems to upset you as much as being at your mom's does, but at least at your mom's you have some help and food, water, access to a kitchen. I wonder, if you moved back home, whether your father would be willing to put the money he's currently paying for your apartment to get you some health insurance. If you're worried about waking your sister, then it will behoove you to find ways to settle your tummy at night. Someone on an earlier post suggested a book that you might find useful.

Here's a tip I remember from when I was pregnant to help with acid reflux at night: get a couple pieces of wood or whatever you can find that will lift the head of your bed just a few inches, no more. It's enough to keep the reflux down and might help you sleep through the night. Raising the head of your bed can also help keep your sinuses drained. By the way, how is your nose now? All healed up from the surgery?

Ruth

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

I'm struggling to write because i have a needle for systems in my arm. I'm really sick. Can't stop vomiting. Might be a stomach bug

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

Write back when you feel well enough! For now, just take care of yourself. And of course you're really sick. Whether your symptoms are caused by a virus or stress, they are still real.