new meds

[Lookingforhope20100]

So I had an appointment with my new psychiatrist he gave me a bunch of new medications to try and so far I like them they may me feel like a zombie. Work is well work, I work retail and that means I always have to have a smile on my face and be in a friendly cheerful mood. that's hard to do when you are in an adjustment period to new mental health meds. things are difficult right now I don't know how to talk about the way I feel. I don't even know how I feel. I struggled with eating disorders my whole life and the problem is with these meds I have no interest in food. My husband is stressed because I'm not eating I keep waking up with nightmares. I don't know how to talk to him I don't know how to talk to anyone I just want to be happy-go-lucky like the normal people in the world I thought I had bipolar 1 but that's not the case I have bipolar 2 with anger and bouts of rage so I stared anger pills and they work okay I mostly get irritated at night when I'm trying to wind down from the day but I try to keep calm. I can't stay happy with something for too long I want to just mess up my life and then find someone to blame but now I'm out of people to blame for all the bad in my life. Well, that's all for now folks.

[Mrspjsmom]

Adjusting to meds has always been incredibly difficult for me. It seems to take forever. But I hope the new meds work for you. Hopefully at work you will have one or two good customers each day. People who are polite, kind and appreciate what you do. When I worked in retail and was struggling those were the people that kept me going. I tried to remember them to get through the day. Not being interested in food might improve. If it becomes a problem you could call your doctor. In the meantime are you able to eat small meals more often or perhaps find a protein drink or bar? I have struggled with eating disorders too and always have peanut butter, nuts or protein bars around. One of my doctors told me nightmares are the brains way of working through things while we rest. If you're up to it try to explain to your husband what is going on. If he understands things a little better it may help his stress. The only other thing that might help is to keep a journal of how you feel, your appetite and sleep as you adjust to the new meds. I always do that because as soon as my doctor asks me a question my mind goes blank. You are trying your best to feel better. I think that's a big deal and hope you are proud of yourself. Sending positive healing thoughts, smiles and hugs.

[Lookingforhope20100 in reply to Mrspjsmom]

Thanks so much for responding sometimes I feel like my post don't mean as much as others but it's a good was to get my feelings out it's easier when no one knows who you are my journey hasn't been smooth and I fight everyday to be the person I want to be and your kind words and advice really helped me today so thank you sending hugs

[Hidden in reply to Lookingforhope20100]

Good luck with the new meds!