Anxiety/Immune

[Mea2021]

I have suffered from anxiety and depression for over 20 years now. I am 100% sure my support system has suffered because of it. There really isn't anyone left besides my mom and husband and I'm pretty sure they have become immune. I feel like I'm doing ok, way better than I was 20 years ago but I still struggle from time to time. When I am in a crisis I feel my last two remaining support systems have checked out. I live 3 states away from my mom. When I talk to her she never responds anymore besides the occasional "mmh hmm" as I clearly hear her clacking away texting someone. My husband isn't as comforting anymore either. I know I'm responsible, dealing with depression and anxiety would wear anyone down, I know that better than anyone. I know I should just use my coping skills and move on. I know I only have my self to bring me comfort. But it would be nice to have someone who could give an encouraging word or a genuine hug from time to time. I'm not really looking for advice or anything. I just wanted to dump this out of my head before it eats me alive. I can go into rabbit hole. I do have regrets and wish I had more people who stuck by but I can't blame anyone but my self. I just have to accept this and be totally ok with it.

[EndUser13]

My support system is pretty small too and I feel guilty about "bugging" them, but they're great and I really appreciate them! Have you chatted much with people on here? If nothing else, you could use the forum to vent on occasion.

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I feel ya. I realize you’re not looking for replies but couldn’t help but jump in and tell you that I can relate. My ppl get tired of hearing my stuff. My mom does the “mmh hmm” too. She’s 82 and still doesn’t believe I suffer from anxiety/depression after 30 years. She says it’s all in my head … which I now find quite hilarious. As if it’s supposed to be attached to my leg! I enjoyed reading your post. Even though you are going through a lack of a support system, I like your attitude and your honesty. Sounds like you are owning your situation, which really counts in my book. Many ppl don’t own it and can therefore never move beyond their stuff. You have the tools and coping techniques necessary. It can be a 5 steps forward; 3 steps backwards sometimes. That rabbit hole is an ugly one; I go down it too often. This is a good support system here. No judgement. Please vent whenever you like. It helps all of us to put it out there😀

[Teaching]

My only support system is My therapist. My siblings are living in another country far away from me. My siblings try their best but they are far from me.No one else understands . I try to focus on myself now.