Struggling at the moment

[Chrishbear]

I’m struggling at the moment despite the fact I have so much to be thankful for. Anxiety/social anxiety has always been a problem for me but I’ve also been suffering from depression over the past couple years as well. I though things were improving but I had to stop taking my meds due to side effects and am waiting to transition to a new one. My in-laws are good people but they are also a great cause of my anxiety. They are a large group of social people and even after 25+ years I find it hard to navigate and see how I fit in. This holiday was harder than usual and I’m left feeling defeated and discouraged about pulling myself out of this whole. Usually I can find something to hold onto but right now I’m at a loss…

[Agora1]

Hi Chrishbear and Welcome to our support forum.

I think coming off your medication (because of side effects) has caused you

to feel more defeated this past holiday. Not everyone fits into the same social

circle as others. Feeling defeated/discouraged is a part of the depression that

hopefully when your doctor finds another one to put you on, the chemical change

will make you feel better and more confident.

Remember, we don't have to pretend to be anyone we are not. You are enough just the

way you are xx

[Chrishbear in reply to Agora1]

Thanks and you're right that we shouldn't have to pretend to be anyone we're not. Being okay with myself is something I want to get better with. Thanks again!

[Agora1 in reply to Chrishbear]

xx

[Hidden]

Having to stop your meds could be intensifying your social anxiety right now. My in-laws (and their entire family) stress me out as well because there are just too many of them for me to handle at once. I came from a smaller family but my spouse has a huge family. Over twenty five total people, all ages, mindless chatter, pushes me to my limits. I find a couple of them who I can relate to, which is usually only a couple, and gravitate to them. The ones who keep my calm. Since you are aware of how much you have to be grateful for, try to focus on all of those things to help pull yourself out of the hole you’re in, Wishing you the best. ❤️

[Chrishbear]

It helps to know I'm not the only one who struggle with large gatherings. You would think after 25+ years it would get easier - although you're right, the med change doesn't help. I'm starting the new one today - fingers crossed! Thanks!

[Hidden in reply to Chrishbear]

Always hear 24/7 anytime you want to vent about large gatherings, lol! Hope the new med brings you some relief. 🤞🍀