My Christmas Eve is a hotbed of horrible moods and mental states.

[Gurbfeld]

I’m actively progressing backwards. People keep explaining to me how I can overcome my problems and live a happy life. But I can’t fucking convince myself that it’ll work. No matter what I do or how I try and phrase it, it’s literally like the words just disappear from my sight and get replaced with my negative feedback loop. The only way I can possibly get people to pay attention to me or care about me is just ranting online to strangers, that’s how little people care about me or acknowledge me. I have a whole album of things I’ve written today, it’s like a big collection of self harm scars that I can’t stop.

[Sabbath1]

You can overcome it. It's all in the mind

Last year I wanted to kill myself . Pretty much.

Nothing but negative thoughts, nobody gave a shit or anything of the sort.

People on here are cool tho and surprised me. And then with some help of my own and other stuff I have been able to take what was pretty much a decade of being miserable and hating myself to not really thinking of anything of myself one way or another.

It's hard to rewire a brain into positive thinking but I have been able to do it. And everything has been much better since . Even if there is problems in life the way you think will change it all. When it's nothing but negative thoughts, you will just be miserable.

Look for the positives in every situation. Cause somewhere there is a positive and once you start seeing the good you will pretty much be like F the bad. That's how it's been for me. And believe me, my thoughts before were just very bad.

Negative.

You just gotta change the way of thinking/ seeing things and yes it is gonna be hard to do at first. Was hard for me .

[Onepurple]

I'm sorry, that is such a hard place to be. I had an okay fun time today at my brother's. My new meds don't have me feeling a lot of anything really. But Merry Christmas and glad you are here.

[Gurbfeld in reply to Onepurple]

I‘ve ruined my life. I’ve crushed any remaining talent or desires within me. I wanna die

[Adamj in reply to Gurbfeld]

I really recommend you calling 988 (suicide hotline) or getting in touch with a crisis like online or phone