losing myselt

[Lovelilly]

I feel like day by day I’m becoming quieter, more apathetic, less funny and less happier. I have a lot of stuff going on in my life and fakeness around me and I just want to run away from it all. I feel my happy spark going away and I have to do school so much now. Every time I get attention I attach myself to it and that pride just brings me up to tear me down. Dating apps have done this and TikTok, and that’s a part of my problem but they’re my coping mechanisms for a bad home life. I’m tired of being gaslit, I want someone to be real with me. I miss my spark, I miss being happy

[Agora1]

Hi Lovelilly. I'd like to Welcome you to a safe and caring forum.

As I tell my own daughter, never allow someone to want you to become

something they need and then turn around and break your heart.

Your happiness and spark must come from you and not another.

I'm happy you are a part of our community. xx

[Nona00]

I'm really sorry you are going through such a hard time right now. I understand what your going through I myself have been suffering from anxiety and panic attacks since 2014. I used to be fun, loved hanging out with my friends and family. Went out and did things. Now it hard to leave the house, I don't like being around people. I feel like I'm always in a funk and there's no way out. It hard talking to your friends or family about how we feel because they don't understand. You feel like your alone. I just found this group and decided to sign up so I can talk to people that go through what I do on a daily basis. Just keep your head up and keep moving forward. Just know you are not alone.

[ML1215]

I totally get how you feel. I am not in school, but I feel like I’m losing myself. Have you found any ways to cope?