it’s hard to admit that I let negative ideas get me carried away to the point that I’m believing the worst type of things like myself and my life sucks and maybe something very terrible is about to happen and so what if it does this won’t help I’m going to be ok but right now scared all this time today I’m wasting on worrying… can anyone relate?
I’m going to ground myself by meditating and exercising at least I’m trying but still I want to be invisible to others so they won’t have a chance to look down on me… I’m the one looking down on myself today and I’m trying to turn this around…wish me luck 🍀
Edit: I feel paralyzed did not exercise now trying to meditate
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I'm sorry today is not going well for you. Ya I used to live in that place. Worst case scenario, overthinking, spinning things in my head. I still do it but not like I used to in the past. It doesn't happen very often but when it does it knocks me for a loop. It's all so draining.
I hope you can turn it around with your meditation. It helps me.
Toots I did a 20 minute meditation and o do feel somewhat better. Thanks for being around the corner, ha! You’re always looking after me earth angel. Love ya so
Anxiety is cruel. Can totally relate to getting carried away by the fear, and how it can happen so randomly. Don’t let it throw you off. You got this! Maybe a nice decaf tea and some zen meditation music. Cuddle with a warm blanket and maybe a show you love to watch. Sending hugs.
hey SayNotoPanic how are you? It’s 5:18 am and haven’t slept yet and I’m sick … oh well it could be much worse … anxiety IS cruel isn’t it? I have one everything is “all good” perspective and then another way of seeing things that belongs to anxiety where all is “ugly and sinister”. Thanks for the tips. I didn’t let it throw me off! 😃
You’re welcome Starrlight. I’m alright. Up with some insomnia. I’ll probably get up and have a snack so I don’t worry about not getting good sleep. I find when I try to force myself to lay there and sleep in a bout of insomnia, it’s more anxiety causing. Hope you feel better soon.
Often negative thoughts take on a life of their own. Before you know it they become a huge wave that washes over us and knocks us off our feet. You keep trying and that matters alot. Especially as the days get shorter and colder. You aren't alone.
Bari Weiss intereviewed someone with BD on her podcast who said that paranoia was a key and persistent part of his illness. If I think about that possibility I can see that I succumb to it an awful lot, even when I don't seem to have any other symptoms. Something for me to think about. Maybe it can be countered somewhat with a focus on forgiveness and positivity.
Interesting. What kind of things do you get paranoid about? I’m trying to figure out if I get paranoid much. I don’t trust much, like I assume others will hurt me or are thinking bad of me. Is that paranoia? I feel like I am being watched a lot too. Thanks for sharing, c-Mac. Hope you are having a great day. I do think forgiveness and positivity will help.
I’m finding these hard to answer. Mostly, the closer you are to me, the more my imagination soars. There’s a guy in my wife’s life that I just almost assume she’s having an affair with, or plotting to leave me for when my daughter leaves for college. And I quickly start to regard colleagues as people conspiring together to undermine me.
But this is like at a deeper level of my internal monologue. On the surface I can usually ignore it until a mood swing comes along.
We all get this from time to time, 32 years ago I was almost paralysed by it too, but my kids were what got me through; after my husband suicided I nearly followed him, but the thoughts of what would happen to my children stopped me.
I found as I carried on that I was tougher than I realised, my late hubby had destroyed my faith in my own abilities, alienated my friends and family, and moved us away far from anyone who knew me. I had to organise my life from scratch, find work, find children's nursery schools, etc, deal with probate and fend off his family, who assumed all his things were now theirs. They sure made life difficult!
I found my belief system, and friends who helped me along the path. I am comfortable in my skin now, but there was a time when I had to get angry with myself, and that little voice which told me I was useless, couldn't do things, etc.
I got mad with it! Told it to go and learn about travel and reproduction, and go the blazes away! It worked, only for a short time at first, but each time I did it, it left for longer, until It rarely raises it's head any more. I still have to cuss and blind it on occasions, but very rarely now. I have it's measure.
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