The culture of the traumatized kids and young adults

[Against_the_current]

I'm a gen z person. My sis too. And i'm in a country that's really old-fasioned. Normal kids don't understand us. But i notice, globally, the kids who were done wrong by their parents and/or are mentally ill find comfort in our culture. We have kpop, gaming, anime, manga,tiktoks, reels, YouTube, webtoon, wattpad, instagram, spotify. We're mostly queer. We support mental health rights. We speak english better than our native language because it feels safe and lets us express ourselves and our favourite things are either on english or with english subtitles. We want to be artists yet genius with science. We are introverts. So we don't get with each other as well. Others don't get us as well. Meanwhile others mock it. Don't understand "these chinese guys/cartoons" are keeping a 14yo girl with divorsed parents from suicide. They don't know she draws comics in her school notebooks so she doesn't lose it at school. Meanwhile in Bulgaria the popular kids listen to chalga which is the worst thing to ever exist as a music, maybe second after Soviet music. Terribly shallow. Experience pain but party it away. Never show their lives aren't perfect. Perfect selfies. Stories from caffees and clubs. Lots of friends. Relationships. Parents still together. Have money. "Why do you like those chinese groups/groups". Can go to the club see their celebrities. We can't. They follow influencers. They bully. They don't understand why we are introverts. Why we experience pain the way we experience it. They ask dumb questions about the homework. Sometimes they make you do their homework. And you do it either because they bully you, they communicate w ur lonely a$$, or they pay you. They have same Marks as you because your brain makes it hard to concentrate and teachers don't give a damn. They don't give a damn the popular kids don't know half the stuff we know. We aren't considered talented but they, the athlethes, are. And even If we're considered talanted, they're using to channel our pain into something comersial. Sometimes it hurts too much to created art. I am hurting like hell and i tell myself "yo N, let's use this as inspiration and write something, draw something, do art". I open some writing app or get paper and nothing. And i feel miserable.

These thoughts came to me when at class today, Psychology of Creativity, we looked at the case of a 15yo girl who was through a lot and drawing comics. When i looked at the comics i immediatelly recognized the style. It's manga style. I recognized the "lol uwu ^^" and so. I felt her dressing androginius. I felt her writing and talking in English. The teacher "She dresses up as a man and prefer to talk in English" 🤦‍♀️😭. I got upset. I asked the teacher what happened to her, he said "i don't know". This hitted me like a knife

But yet i see us. "We're outsiders but we're not hiding anymore".

So any kpop Fans? I have posters in my room of of (G) I-dle and when someone enters my room and says "what's that chinese girls" i feel so embarassed. (We listen to other stuff than kpop which is same too, like Yungblud, Against the current, Corpse, Chase atlantic. I see the youth and i be like damn, i know the music from their stories lol). I mostly stan girl groups. My favourite are Dreamcatcher, Blackpink, (G) I-dle, K/DA <3

[Brokenbeardedbear]

This is interesting to read. I like learning about other cultures. I never felt as though I fitted in to any of my english culture. I like other cultures alot though and often find I feel more at home with them than my own.

[SoporRose]

This part of your post really struck me too:

“The teacher "She dresses up as a man and prefer to talk in English" 🤦‍♀️😭. I got upset. I asked the teacher what happened to her, he said "i don't know". This hitted me like a knife.”

What happened to that child MATTERS. It's all that really matters. That you cared enough is what makes you stand out, what makes you special, what makes you strong.

Your description of the Gen Z experience rings true with what I’ve heard from my younger friends. I take hope from the sensibility of your generation. You are the ones who will save us all.