Moving out

[Against_the_current]

I mentally try to stay strong but my body shows im stressed. I can't sleep, my stomache is upset, racing thoughts, shivers. Today i went to the renting office after classes, had really rough talk, she said I can't find anything with my budget and everything is rented. Damn this war and economical war. She called a coworker and the coworker found one last place, above my budged but it had some of the bills paid. I had to sign up and pay immediatelly because i would lose it, others wanted it. I was shivering and i just singed everything. It's my only choice. Can't stop overthinking it. I was there for a room but it was on the parter, no light, tight, If i open a window everyone can see me. They had another room but more expensive but i took it. Damn war. Hope we don't go online classes because it would be meaningless (If we don't count being with mom). Cons - old house, landlord and a lot of other residents, sharing a washing mashine with some guy. Pros am alone, new furniture, in my current neighbourhood. I hate when ppl say "You shouldn't have signed". I already did, i was dying and also where else would i go? On a tent? I really like my current accomodation i don't like ththe roommates but the place is awesome, thinking when to move to hte new place. Tommorrow or the day after. I want to stay but i want to avoid paying bills. I payed a fortune for moving out. It's not fair. And my mental health. And i have to pack all my stuff, move it, organize it in less space and clean. I'm on overload. Not giving in to anxiety, being brave, but my body reacts. The stress is real. There are alot of other residents. Hope i get used. I payed so much

[Raggedy-Ann]

Hurray! You have a place where you can relax and not worry about others. Take a nice deep breath and the rest is just details. Moving is a drag for everybody so keep in mind it will be done soon. It's ok to smile a bit, and "don't sweat the small stuff."

[Against_the_current in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

Thanks, so reliaving

[SoporRose]

Moving is incredibly stressful, but I am proud of you for taking the plunge. I know you didn't want to have to move out of that lovely apartment, but I hope the advantages of the new place will come to outweigh the disadvantages and that your dad will be supportive. I both sympathize with you’re disappointment and pain from having ti mive and feel hopeful this situation will be better.

I know you’re on overload. I wish I could think of a solution.

Good luck!

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Thank you, appreciate the understanding

[Midori]

It's a stepping stone to independence. Well done You!

Cheers, midori

[Against_the_current in reply to Midori]

Thanks, feel good to be given credits