Dad's stressing me out

[Against_the_current]

He arrived right when i bought sth to eat, i hid it as If i hide drugs not chicken because i got worried he would say it's expensive and unhealthy and mi complaining from my heart. I am sick physically and mentally and can't function and he started talking about me moving out, changing accomodations, packing my stuff, not paying 2 rents, going to see places... I'm so anxious, how can i think about that?! And i'm agoraphobic, i'm scared of changing places. I don't want to change places.

I zoned out, shed some tears, tahicardia. Only sis noticed and gave me a pill. Poor sis. Only she understands. And it's probably not nice to her. All her family crazy, all our family. And he said sis and i should study and If uni goes online, me to tsay here. I'm losing it

[Raggedy-Ann]

I hope this note finds you feeling better. It is hard to move into a new space and try to feel safe and comfortable. Once you do have a place of your own maybe you will have less stress and feel better. Sending you positive energy.

[Against_the_current in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

Thanks. I really want a personal place but idk If dad's gonna allow me to take loan and buy. I want to buy my current accomodation

[Midori in reply to Against_the_current]

From my point of view, getting a loan from your Dad to buy a place would be a mistake, and tie you to him for many more years. He will then still be able to control you.

Better to rent or share with somebody, until you are in a better financial state to buy independent of him.

Cheers, Midori

[Against_the_current in reply to Midori]

I won't get the loan from him, i will get it from the bank for sure. I really don't know. I just want a safe place