I have been battling with severe anxiety and depression since I was 13 years old. I am now 28 and it feels like this will never get better. I am constantly on edge at work and even at home, I feel constantly paranoid, I don’t want to go out anymore, I can’t even reply to simple messages from my friends because it just feels too much!
Will this suffering ever end? I feel like my life is going away from me and I am in this constant dark deep pit that I can’t seem to escape.
My anxiety is even so bad that I can’t break up with my boyfriend of 7 years because I just feel too bad for him and I simply don’t have the energy to tell him how I really feel which I know is very unfair to the guy. I just don’t feel like he supports me emotionally and I just want to move into my own place because I literally just want to be on my own the whole time.
I also recently started a new job as a sales & marketing coordinator and the women that I work with literally gives me nightmares. I am constantly on edge and expecting the worse. I am also starting to miss deadlines because I can’t seem to focus on work because all I can think of is getting into bed at night and I am thus proscrastinating a lot!
Does anyone have any advice for me?
I am feeling very lonely, vulnerable and completely out of life.
love 🖤
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It can get better. For me it was meds and a good therapist but it took me a long time to get help. Try to accept yourself where you are, make time for one thing that brings you calm everyday- a cup of tea, a book, meditation, prayer , something. Keeping the bad boyfriend isn’t fair to either of you. Let go and trust that you both will be fine and you will be making space for something else in your life.
It definitely can get better (puppypower gave good advice). I suffer from anxiety starting around the same age as you, but I didn't find out until about age 40. I just thought I was a broken inferior person. I finally went to therapy and got meds and have had significant improvement. My battle continues and is still difficult but I'm in a better place and much more able to have joy in my life.
You have an illness, an impactful serious one just as I do. You need help to overcome it just like you would a physical illness.
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