Sometimes I sit and think am I an emotional abuser. Do I mentally manipulate others? My boyfriend especially or is everyone really a treat and I really can't read people and keep choosing the wrong ones to open up to.
Sometimes I open up about wanting to die or feeling overwhelmed by life and it comes back to bite me when people make comments like, I know it's hard but ... you're being an asshole. you're messing up a great opportunity, you're crying over the past forget it. you've ruined yourself and we can't stand your weakness.
Then on the other hand when things get hard I quit and my reason is my anxiety and depression but sometimes it feels like an excuse not to do something and people feel pity for me and drop it. it really depend on the person.
however these days I can't tell if it's tough love or pure wickedness,if am being too much and people are just tired of me always being mental messed up. I quit my job because my social anxiety has gotten worse and my physical health isn't perfect either but to me all I can feel is your so stupid for doing that,you've embarrassed yourself.
I feel like a bad person who has to change. Being this way doesn't mean I get a free pass at life. but damn this social thing is hard,moving here was maybe not such a great idea.
Crying because you're strong. 
Hey! Looking to connect! 
Social Media Poison
I need help.
constant emotional labor 
