Trapped in my body (and mind)

[Loves22read]

This is how I feel.

[Roxylox]

Welcome Loves22read. Do you have physical issues?

[Loves22read in reply to Roxylox]

Yes, as well as extreme anxiety leading to panic attacks. I have FND, Functional Neurological disorder. In my case it’s pretty much like having a stroke on my left side but not really having I’ve. My brain thinks I did so my brain “software” does not connect to parts of my body while mt brain “hardware” works just fine.

Right now I am in a middle of a flare up so I can’t drive, have to use a cane and hold the walls to move around in the house as my sense of balance is totally off. I’m also suffering from brain fog and my eyes keep getting blurry as well as feeling totally exhausted all of the time. Fun times!!

This flare up happened right around Mother’s Day. I went to the ER, had MRI and Cat scans as well as blood tests. They said they couldn’t find anything wrong other than an ear infection but they kept me overnight for observation, then neurologist said it was another flare up and sent me home.

Before this I had full function of my body. Was driving, handling the house and so on. I am disabled now as I had s horrible flare up a couple of years ago that left me in the hospital and inpatient rehab fir 5 months. I was wheelchair bound for another 2 months but slowly regained the ability to walk.

This all contributes to my anxiety and stress but I think the reverse happens as well. Sorry for the long post but wanted to explain what FND was.

[Roxylox in reply to Loves22read]

I am so sorry. I do hope your flare up doesn't last long.

[Loves22read]

Thanks