Life is just hard

[Dancer2020]

20 years ago I lost my dad and significant other within 3 months. I guess I lost my mind then too. I went into a horrible depression and my anxiety went off the charts. That's when I had to go on meds. I recently lost someone who was like my dad. Over the years I've lost friends and family and find myself alone without. I felt safe and cared about when they were around. I'm still on meds, still have horrible anxiety and nowhere I can go to have peace. I have better days, not great, I've had injuries that have stopped me from doing things I love. So how long can one hang on? I want to feel content or just disappear. How do you disappear? How do you find new friends? Even my therapist says I can't seem to get break. I want peace. I'm scared, I'm tired. What do I do?

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Easier said than done I know, but try and enjoy the good things in your life. The more you focus on the good, the more it will drown out the bad.

[Daveacr1959]

Read peoples profiles on here , maybe you can see a kindred spirit. I like guided deep breathing exercises with breath holds . And cold showers or bath or plunge. And exercise daily daily. We are here if you need us . Hope is the most important word in the world. I pray for hope . With hope comes motivation. With motivation dreams and happiness are near .

[Dancer2020 in reply to Daveacr1959]

Thank you

[cbgrace1980]

My therapist has at time been at a loss for words with some of the things I've had to face. I know that feeling and it makes you feel even worse. I've done some extensive volunteer work to meet new friends, and you only have to share with them what you are willing to share. My parents died within 3 months of each other, and I've been divorced twice. I feel like I'm always waiting for "the other shoe to drop" but I try to stay on the sunny side and look for the good. It's out there. Hugs to you.

[Dancer2020 in reply to cbgrace1980]

Thanks for your response.