The trip is over Tommorrow. I got sick and mom's offering to take me home but i don't know

[Against_the_current]

I don't know what to do. I just worry and worry about whether to go home and when to go home. She said i'm sick and she better take me. And it's a good opportunity to go home but home triggers me and sis has 4 last days of vacation she can rest. Maybe at home i might feel cozy but maybe i might see the baby or get triggered from mom and sis. Going home or not is causing me so much stress. We all know home is a toxic place for me

[AuntBee]

Im struggling to figure out where you can physically be where you are not stressed or the environment isnt toxic. Where are you comfortable? Who in your life is not triggering? Maybe figuring out where you want to be and who you want to be around will be more helpful than figuring out where you dont want to be.

[Against_the_current in reply to AuntBee]

You're right but i don't think i have a safe space. My accomodation is the closest to it, still i struggle with social phobia and agoraphobia, but i think it's the best. Now mom's taking me because i'm really sick. I thought about it all night, had nightmare after nightmare, dream after a dream. I'm really sick and probably wouldn't be able to buy food in my accomodation and in my hometown the supermarket is near. I thought about it a lot.

[AuntBee in reply to Against_the_current]

I was surprised your sis went on vacation while she was sick. Was she tested for covid? are you going to get tested for covid? Hope you have a speedy recovery at your mom’s.