I have always suffered from anxiety and ocd. After I had the baby it got worse. I bonded well but it got too much. I ended up staying with my mum for a few weeks and leaving the baby with his dad. I basically went to jump off a bridge but bottled it. Then a little later on I had the urge to stab myself in the neck several times and chest and did exactly that. I was airlifted to hospital and sectioned. I ended up in a mother and baby unit for three and half months. I could not fault the place. I didn't wash for three weeks. I lost my appetite and was put on food supplements, I never thought I would get better. I was on one to one . I wouldn't feed or change the baby for months. Just cuddle, but I loved him so much. I had therapy which helped and medication. I have been out of care for just over a year now , still on medication but have made pretty much made a full recovery. I thought the baby wasn't mine and he was judging me. We have such a good relationship now and have lots of plans this year. My partner and family were amazing and still are. We are currently trying for another baby but I'm scared of it happening again . Has anyone experienced anything like this ?
Thanks for reading x
Overwhelmed and Scared
Scared
idk what just happened
Really scared and nervous
is it okay to be scared?
