Had a terrible experience

[Against_the_current]

So i was still panicing about dad (my previous post) and my friend wanted me to go to here. I went outside but here it's already dark and it's snowing and raining. I got dissosiated from panic and from the weather, i got lost, i paniced even more. I got to my gps but then she started messagining. I just wanted to go home and finally, ignoring all the messages (that weren't even supportive, all drove me mad) i got home all wet from the snow-rain. I got a warm shower and got a coldness allergy 😭. My thights are all Red and itchy. My hands too. I put some cream on it and drank allergy meds. Asked my mom who is a pharmasist and she told me to do this. And i'm worried the itch won't go away or whether i will get scares or something. I'm just so terrified. I was dissosiated from the issue with dad and i couldn't find the way to hers, got lost, paniced more, was exposed to the cold. Terrible. Now i'm blaming myself for not staying in. But i thought seeing her would cheer me up. I never arrived. I'm just lucky i got home. How can i be inadequate 😭. And i worried mom. She told me to get an antihistamin and i got 3 antihistamins and a cirticosteroid. And she later called and was like "what have you done 💀". I was just panicing and i drank everything for allergy i could find. I was panicing since the morning. Then i paniced because of dad. Then i paniced because i'm lost. Then i paniced because i got allergy. And now i'm panicing because i worried mom to ask her what to do with my allergy. I'm just panicing all day and being inadequate. I'm so stupid, i should have told my friend no but i thought it would cheer me up from thinking about dad. And now it got worse cause mom is the one that helped me. I feel so damn guilty. Being lost in the dark and snow was really terrifying. And the concequences are even worse.