So confused about what I’m supposed to be doing

[Melancholy12]

I’m also feeling like a fake. Like all these things I wanted a marriage, a home a child. I was going with the wrong person but I see it now. Not then. I’m so damn naive and I’m re-examining my life at 62. Trying to heal that little broken girl that I was at 14 when my mom died of cancer. But this is not the time to have this kind of crisis. I have to get ready for a job I don’t want to be at. My problem is I I often knew what I didn’t want but finances pushed me to help out and help myself. Nothing feels normal anymore.

[HoldingonLou]

I'm sorry you are feeling this way but can you explain what you mean by nothing feels normal anymore? We can all benefit from re-examing our lives but there is often much to be grateful for. Focusing on the negative will only make things seem worse. Are you still married? How many kids do you have? I am here for you if you want to chat.

[Melancholy12 in reply to HoldingonLou]

I was just not making any sense this morning. You are so right can’t keep focusing on the negative or the past. There are so many positive things in life. I am still married but I will be moving into an apartment soon -trial separation and I have a 20 year old in college. I do feel so much better tonight. I organized so many papers. Just feel better. Thank you for reaching out.

[CoderMom]

Maybe find things you are good at, such as a hobby or a job that you really enjoy?

[Melancholy12]

I work with 4s and im good at it! Getting back into hobbies and volunteering