Saw a picture of my wife and kids from 6 years ago. When I was very happy and living in a different city and had a good job
Now in a different place and a menial job and I’ve been depressed for 3 years
The picture made me so sad
I feel my life has been shattered
I know I should just cherish the memory but my mind spins out of control with regret and remorse and that leads to anxiety and depression
I’ve been a real mess for 3 years
Feels like I’ll never pull out and have a happy time again
Still living with my family but it’s not good for than to have someone always depressed around
I’m taking medication and in therapy
But my mind seems so stubborn
It will not let go and not forgive myself for mistakes and accept what is and move on
I try letting the thoughts pass without engaging them but the come constantly
I must get some short term pleasure from following them
Long term it is toxic
Life is passing me by and I am miserable
I know so many in the works have real and pressing problems and I should be grateful for my wonderful wife and great kids and a job
But I am stuck in this self absorbed hell
Any advice